Page 21 of Release Me

“No.”

“It's where I work with my patients to identify harmful patterns of behavior or habits.”

She continues to sit there, looking uninterested in what I have to say.

“Starting today, we’re going to walk through a few scenarios, in a safe space, that challenge your triggers.”

That perks her up a little bit, but she still stares at me with a questioning look on her face.

“Sorry if I’m not following, but are you talking about us getting down and dirty, Dick?”

“In a sense, yes. Go ahead and lie back on the sofa for me,” I command as I stare into her eyes intently and stalk closer to her.

“Holy fuck!” she exclaims. “It’s like I’ve died and gone to heaven.”

“Brynn, I need you to do whatever it’s going to take for you to act like a responsible adult right now. Can you please do that for me?”

Her eyes widen at my irritation, but I seem to get my point across to her.

“I want you to close your eyes and tell me what you’re feeling. Which emotion is at the forefront of your mind?”

“Pain,” she answers after a few moments. “And sadness.”

“What is causing you to feel this way?

“I… I feel bad because of what happened with Andy and Finn.”

“And what happened?”

I watch her chest as she takes a deep breath.

“The three of us, sometimes we…get together if you get my drift.”

Yeah. I get the drift, and I don’tfuckinglike it one bit.That isn’t where I thought the story was going. I had no idea she was involved with Andy, too. Thinking about her fucking two people here, two people who aren’t me, heightens my anger.

“The issue with that is, Finn and Andy don’t really like one another. But they get along well enough for me when I want them to.This morning, Finn and I were in the janitor’s office, andAndy walked in. I got him to join, but this time, Finn couldn’t even pretend to be okay with it. He started complaining, and I rolled my eyes. Only Andy could see me, so it wouldn’t have been a big deal, except for the fact that he used it as an excuse to egg Finn on.Finn started to feel like we were ganging up on him a little bit, and he got aggressive. That’s when he attacked Andy.”

I watch the slow rise and fall of her tits as she pauses before continuing her story. I want to cover them with my hands. I want to tug on her nipples while she plays with herself.

Fuck. Pay attention, Richard.

“If you were out in the real world, what would you do to make yourself feel better?”

“I would find someone to fuck.”

“Right, I understand that’s your go-to, butwhatwould you do, in detail, if you could do anything to get over your feelings?”

“I would…I don’t know. I guess I would call someone? A willing fuckbuddy or maybe a client with a darker predisposition.”

“Okay, good. Now we’re getting somewhere. In situations like this, are you usually the giver or the receiver?”

“The receiver. If I am trying to forget my pain, I need someone to take it from me.”

“Okay, Brynn. Now comes the hard part. I need you to open your eyes and look at me.”

I move from my place behind the chair, so I am standing tall above her in front of the sofa.

She opens her electric blue eyes, and they’re trained on mine immediately. I offer her my hand, letting her know I want her to stand up.When we’re chest to chest, I place my hands on her upper arms and ready myself for what’s next.

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