Page 69 of Sigils & Spells

He practically growled as he pushed me back and crawled onto the bed.

I didn’t feel so helpless anymore. I hooked my leg over his hip and lifted my core for him. He slid in exactly where I wanted him. Had wanted him for so very long. Our eyes locked with each other as he slid into me and eased back to thrust in deeper. The walls of my core throbbed and pulsed in time to his thrusts. He had already driven me to the edge of orgasm once. I was so very close.

I clutched at him, and he pulled my nipple into his mouth again, twisting and pinching the other one. He loved my body with a skill I could only have wished for.

“Merle,” I whimpered. I wasn’t capable of screaming when my orgasm hit. It was all encompassing. It took everything from me, my vision, my senses. I was throbbing muscles and starbursts. But he didn’t stop. He kept thrusting and sucking and driving me deeper and deeper into my ecstasy.

And then he shuddered and pressed hard against me.

My vision cleared, and I saw a silent scream on his face as he hit his release.

He pressed his hips tight to mine and relaxed with a sigh.

I ran my hands over his arms, all the muscles tight and bunching as he supported himself above me. He shivered and then slipped away. He was gone for a moment, and then he slid into the bed and pulled a blanket over us as he bundled me into his arms.

“Thank you,” he whispered against my hair.

“Thank you?” I asked. I understood what he meant. That had been better than I had imagined, but what had he meant? I had Merle in my bed. He was naked, he had just rocked my world, and I still felt uncertain about us.

“Yeah, thank you for being everything and more.” His voice trailed off as he passed out. I guess I had rocked his world too. I knew men got sleepy after, but I had never slept with a guy who passed out on me quite like this.

After getting up to get myself clean, I padded out to the living room and blew out the candles. I put the pizza away for later. We could reheat it when Merle woke up, if we were even hungry. I already wanted seconds of him.

He stirred when I crawled back into bed and snuggled close to him.

“I fell asleep, didn’t I?” He mumbled.

“It’s okay, you earned it. I think a little nap sounds like a good idea.”

“Is that what you normally do? Take a nap?”

I pushed up on my elbow, so I could look at him better.

“What’s that supposed to mean? What I normally do?”

“You know, seduce men and then take a nap? Is that what you did with Darren? Or did he spend the entire night? Or did you do the walk of shame from his place?”

I sat up and ran my hand over my face. A moment earlier I had thought that putting a sleep shirt on had been stupid, and I wanted to feel Merle’s skin against mine, now I was glad I had a shirt on so that I didn’t have to worry about covering myself.

“I don’t remember what I did with Darren. Do we have to talk about him right now?”

“Well, I think I should know what to expect. Seduction’s complete, should I just leave?”

“What? Seduction’s complete? Is that all this was to you? How fast could you get me into bed?” I groaned. I had been an idiot. He didn’t want me for me. This was some pissing contest between him and Darren, and I was the measuring stick.

“Yes, yes, you should just leave. Go!” I pointed out of my room.

Merle looked at me with wide eyes.

“Pandora, that’s not—”

“I really don’t care what you meant to say right now. You need to leave. Just, just go.”

Pulling the blankets over my head, I flopped back onto the mattress.

I heard Merle shuffling around gathering his clothes. I wrapped my arms around my head and tried to not listen and did my best to make no sound as I cried. This had all been such a terrible mistake. All of it, from Darren to Merle and back again. I had fucked up yet again. I hurt, and I only had myself to blame.

When the front door closed, I stopped trying to hide the sounds of my crying.

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