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I return to my place, and Danylo puts Timothey in the pram. We order and return to our conversations.

"I started going to a therapist," I confess.

"Why?" Danylo says in surprise, looking intently into my face.

"I want to try to move on."

"Didn't Louis become your reason to move on?" No.

Although maybe Louis, but most likely Danylo became the factor that made me move on.

"Do you like him?" He asks unexpectedly.

"What?" I raise my eyebrows. "No, Danylo, he is like an older brother to me."

"I'm just asking," Danylo puts his hands up. "I'm glad you're moving on, really, and it doesn't matter who's the reason." You.

You are always the reason for everything in my life.

"I'm glad too," I smile.

Someone calls Danylo, and he picks up the phone, from the conversation it’s not difficult to guess who he is talking to:

"What happened, Zlata?" the smile slowly disappears from his face.

"Okay, I'll come now," he says quickly and hangs up.

"I'm sorry, darley," he now looks at me with guilt-filled eyes.

"It's okay," I retreat, not giving him the opportunity to explain the reason. Zlata needs him, so he has every right to go to his wife now. "We will meet again, I was glad to see you." "Yes, and I was glad to see you," I smile.

I looked into his eyes and saw the universe. That immeasurable space, which I always wanted to reach. This five metre distance between us seemed like an eternity. I wanted to become one with him, but I knew that it would not happen. Neither today nor tomorrow, he’ll never belong to me. Neither today, nor tomorrow, he’ll never become my universe.

We left the café, where different paths were already waiting for us.

Chapter 33

Ifelt a kind of emptiness. As if someone shot a hole through me. I felt that I had to fill this void with something, but I didn't know what exactly. Walking around the university, I looked into the faces of the boys, and I didn't see what I was looking for in any of them. They were the rain while I was looking for the sun. They were a voice while I sought silence. They were the sea while I was looking for the mountains.

I wandered the corridors in search of something that would fill my lungs with air, but at the same time make me suffocate from the lack of it. I was looking for someone who would make my heart skip a beat, but jump out of my chest the next second. I was looking for someone, afraid to admit to myself that I had found him a few months ago.

In fact, I wandered the corridors not in search of someone, but in search of him. I wanted to make sure that my heart still reacted to him that way. I wanted to make sure I wasn't making this up.

But Danylo was nowhere to be found.

Chapter 34

I’m putting on a tracksuit.

And then I change it to jeans and a hoodie.

He will come any minute, and I feel like I'm six, and I'm waiting for St. Nicholas. I'm shaking all over. I'm worried, but we'll just study.

Ten minutes ago, Danylo sent me an SMS that he was in the dormitory with his friends and asked if I would not mind meeting.

Me: I'm happy, but the exam is tomorrow, and I don't know anything.

Him: I don't believe. You know everything.

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