Page 56 of Sin & Secrets

My hand reaches to press into the back of her head. Her lips part willingly for my tongue. I want…I want…I want…

I need to stop.

I pull away abruptly.

“What?” Her eyes are wide with alarm and rejection.

“We shouldn’t.”

Something scorching hot crosses her face. “You had no trouble fucking me with your tongue the other day.”

She tries to pull away, but I hold fast. “I mean. We shouldn’t kiss.”

“Why not?”

“Because it’s too…” I glance down, suddenly distracted by her swollen lips.

She snorts. “You think I’m going to fall in love with you over a kiss?”

I chuckle to myself. “It’s not you I’m worried about.”

Her dark brow shoots up. But she doesn’t say anything. She doesn’t protest as I pull her back to me, resting my forehead against hers.

“I can’t let anything serious happen between us. You’ll only be disappointed,” I reiterate softly.

To my surprise, she tilts her head toward mine again.

“Cas…”

But she kisses my cheek, then after a moment, kisses the other.

“Is this okay?” she whispers against my skin, sending pure desire trembling through my body.

“It’s the principle of

She kisses the corner of my mouth. “What about this?”

“Cas,” I groan. “Enough.”

“You want me to stop?” She pulls me away, but my hand doesn’t let her move too far.

“I want you…”

That’s all I can get out. I bury my head in her shoulder, my senses rejoicing in her scent, her touch.

“I’m so intoxicated by you,” I whisper. “If I start…I don’t think I can stop.”

A hand tangles itself in my hair, pulling gently, soothingly. At the touch, I can feel every muscle in my body relaxing.

“Why not?”

I scrunch my eyes closed. “This isn’t a life you want, Cas.”

She’s silent for a moment. Her fingers continue combing through my hair. “Then what do we do?”

We.The word reverberates through my body like a siren’s song.

“Because I can’t sleep in that room knowing you’re just down the hall. I can’t pretend there’s nothing going on here. I’ve been going insane all week wondering if I dreamed this whole thing up.”

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