Page 138 of His Sunshine Baby

Deep breaths, think of something to say. Something that will not make me look totally nuts.

“I can’t answer you right now. I have things to sort out, and–”

“Elena, why is it never the time with you?” he suddenly bursts, angry. “I’m opening my heart to you, putting my feelings out in the open, and it’s not the right time? Are you kidding me? I just need a yes or no, Elena!”

“You can’t just ask me that, Nate! You think it’s easy! I have a million things to consider, and you just think I would let it all go for you! Put yourself in my shoes, for once! I’m not powerful like you, I’m not the King’s brother! I can’t just decide to throw my whole life away on a whim!”

“Seriously, what’s holding you back? Can’t you just admit that you’re too scared of your feelings for me? I know you love me too, Elena!”

“It’s not that easy! My father is in the hospital. My uncle and godfather are freaking Alphas, Nate! I can’t just throw away the pack I grew up in, do you realize they adopted me? I wasn’t even born there, and yet they gave me a home, a place, andresponsibilities! I can’t just leave them like that, Nate! You don’t know what it’s like!”

How can I still be angry with him? This whole damn conversation is exhausting, why are we yelling and screaming every time we see each other! He sighs, shaking his head, visibly annoyed. I know he’s serious, but I’m not as free as he is!

“I have to go,” I say, retreating a bit.

“So you’re going to leave me without an answer? Again?”

“Not now, Nate, seriously.”

Moon Goddess, I have to go to the clinic so I can confirm I’m pregnant with his baby, why do I have to deal with this first? He frowns, looking at me. I need to go back to the border, so I take my courage and turn around, wrapping my arms around me. I walk fast, and I know he’s following me. I know it’s his territory, his right, but…

“Elena!”

As promised, Daniel is waiting for me at the border, along with… shit, Levi. Nathaniel clicks his tongue.

“Of course.”

“He’s only here to accompany me, Nate.”

“Yeah, I bet.”

I turn to him, angry.

“Nathaniel, enough. Levi’s helping me where you can’t. If you don’t like it, I don’t care. We’ll talk later.”

He stays silent, but his glare towards Levi speaks volumes. Seriously. I turn around and finally get in the car, unable to hold it anymore. Levi’s driving, and I purposely sat in the back with Danny. My best friend looks at me, worried.

“You okay, babe? Your eyes are red.”

“Levi, just start the car, please.”

“Yeah.”

I try to ignore Nate’s stare I can feel from the other side of the road. Moon Goddess, I’m so tired already.

“Elena?”

“I’m not feeling well,” I admit.

“Hang on, babe, we’re going to the clinic, getting you all checked up.”

I doze off on Daniel’s shoulder until we get there. I’m trying to forget my dispute with Nate. This all came at such a bad time. Why is the timing always so off? I have to say, I’m feeling weaker than usual. It’s a relief when Levi finally parks in front of the clinic.

The Lewis brothers help me out, and Iris comes to meet me in the parking lot, looking worried.

“Are you okay, Elena? You look very pale. Come, Mrs. Lewis has the room ready for you.”

My cousin guides us through the hospital and as promised, I’m taken into an isolated room. I don’t know why, but the sight of the medical equipment makes it all a bit too real. Daniel holds my hand even when I sit on the weird seat for observation. Levi holds my jacket for me and leaves the room quietly. I’m a bit grateful. I’m nervous enough without an audience.

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