Page 137 of His Sunshine Baby

“Elena, I’m dead serious. I know we’ve had our ups and downs, but I want to sit down and discuss things seriously with you. I’m not over you, I’m nowhere near that. I want you back, I want the relationship we had back.”

I shake my head.

“I’m not going back to being your fuck buddy, Nate. I believe you had plenty of candidates for that,” I say, still bitter about last time.

“I meant as my lover, Elena, my girlfriend.”

Fuck. Why did he have to say that now? He has never said that damn word, and I wasn’t ready to hear it. I just can’t! I have way too much going on right now! I’m close to uncovering the secret behind my birth, I just found Nora, my uncle is seriously after me, and Diego, too. And I’m fucking pregnant with his child!

“Elena?”

He comes close, worried about my sudden tears, but I step back. I feel like I’ll explode if he touches me. I’m such a mess right now. I try to wipe them away clumsily. Damn, if only I could control my emotions a little!

“Elena, talk to me.”

“Nate, I can’t. Not here, not now, okay? I don’t… I don’t feel like talking. It’s really not a good time right now.”

He frowns, and his eyes go down on my oversized denim jacket.

“Is it because of him? Daniel’s brother?”

Shit, he smelled it was Levi’s. Damn, I only borrowed it to cover up my tummy! I didn’t think that would lead to anotherjealousy crisis with Nathaniel! I shake my head, annoyed. This is not what I came for, and I don’t want to fight him again!

“Leave Levi alone, Nate, seriously. He’s got nothing to do with you.”

“Are you going out with him now? For real?” he asks, his breathing becoming more intense.

“Moon Goddess, Nate, I told you a hundred times, no! I only borrowed his jacket, okay? Enough with this! I’m fed up with your jealousy!”

“Then why did you block me? It’s been weeks, Elena! I couldn’t call or text you. I couldn’t reach you at all!”

“I needed time alone, Nate! Okay? Things have been hard lately, and I have had enough to deal with already! I’ll unblock you if it makes you happy, but I don’t have the luxury to stay right now, okay?”

I turn away and start walking, trying to stop my tears. Fuck, I really wish I hadn’t cried in front of him…

“Elena!”

I keep walking, trying to ignore him, but he suddenly grabs my wrist and, before I can even react, kisses me.

Moon Goddess. I feel my whole body going numb under his lips. How long has it been? I just can’t move. I don’t push him away, I don’t answer his kiss, I can’t do anything. Nate’s kiss is driving me crazy. I want to scream and cry again, I can’t take it. Why is he doing this now?

He separates from me, putting his hands on my shoulders, while I’m still standing there like an idiot, confused as hell.

“Elena, I’m sorry. I’m sorry I lied to you. I’ll say it now. I love you, Elena. I really love you.”

Holy shit.

He really said it. I am shivering with something I can’t identify right now. My heart’s bursting with happiness, but my head is freaking out. Why now, of all times? This is so brutal; Ihave no idea how to respond to that. I stand there, speechless, lost.

Moon Goddess, is this even real? And why the hell does he have to confess when I’m already a hormonal mess!

I try to calm down. Think about the baby, think about the baby, Elena, Sylviana said no stress. My gosh, he’s so not helping!

“Nate, I… I can’t…”

“You can’t what, Elena?”

I take a deep breath in. I can’t handle the bomb he just dropped on me! I shake my head, trying to find the right words. I wish I could tell him how I feel, too, but I’m just so confused right now, I feel like crying, screaming, and literally exploding.

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