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I think I’m ready for the more.

Zac’s been amazing. Patient. Caring. Always there for me. Ready to give me anything I want. He’s never indicated in any way that going slow is a problem, even though I can literally feel the evidence that he wants more. He won’t ask for it. He’ll wait for me to make that move.

The problem is… I’m not sure how. I’m not even completely sure how…itall works.

I know the mechanics, of course. I’ve read books, watched porn. But I’m pretty sure there are bits that get left out for artistic purposes. And even if I had a detailed how-to manual, I know from learning to fly and bake that sometimes, the first attempt doesn’t work. It can be awkward or uncomfortable or hard as a rock.

I think this analogy got off-track. Hard as a rock is probably a good thing when it comes to sex.

But I don’t want to make our first time together bad for him because it’s my first time ever and I don’t know what I’m doing. And it’s not like I can have my first time with someone else to get the practice in—not that I’d even want to. Just the thought of being with someone other than Zac is blech.

Which means I need to ask for help.

Now’s the best time. Zac left twenty minutes ago, still excited because today we finally got a completely snow-cleared patch in the village. I’m told that won’t last, but it’s a big sign that spring has come to Hortplatz, and it made Zac adorably giddy.

I pull out my phone and open the Ro Ro Ro The Group thread. Lately it’s been more about cat memes and videos of people being idiots than actual advice, which I love.

Need help. You’re not allowed to laugh.

It takes less than thirty seconds for multiple people to start typing.

Hagen:

Can’t guarantee that, but I promise you’ll never know

Fabian:

Are you in trouble? If you’re naked and tied to furniture, don’t worry. Your joints are more flexible than you realize.

Sophie:

You can tell me anything. I’m a healer. I’ve seen it all.

Sophie:

But if the pus is orange, don’t touch it

Dustin:

Can I come visit soon? I want more cookies. The ones you sent got eaten so fast.

I take a second to wonder what would make pus orange, then decide to ignore all their comments and just push on.

I never said anything because it’s private, but I’ve never had sex before

There’s a moment where none of them type. It’s like they don’t know what to say. People who’ve met them would be shocked.

Fabian:

Um. I’m sorry, but I don’t get it?

Hagen:

Do you mean with a demon? Are you and Zac not… Okay. That’s cool. It’s just like with all the other species. You’ll be fine!

No. I’ve never had sex

Dustin:

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