Page 109 of Is It Casual Now?

“Because you’re turning down my offer and choosing me instead. No one has actually ever done that before.”

Jamie’s face burned hotter beneath Siena’s touch and then her kiss. She had to break that tension quickly because it was too much for her to handle. She needed the easiness that she’d found in their relationship, not this intensity that was so filled with emotions she wasn’t quite comfortable with.

Jamie smirked. “Well, they are really good orgasms.”

Laughing with ease, Jamie pulled Siena in until their lips gently brushed. The kisses were slow at first and then quick. Jamie hadn’t had enough, though. She tugged Siena in even closer, deepening their kisses as Siena started to crawl on top of her.

“I love you,” Jamie whispered against Siena’s mouth. “Come back to bed… I didn’t get my dessert last night.”

“Always.” Siena climbed over Jamie, curling beside her and snuggling into her side.

Jamie inhaled the relief and the comfort. She still wanted more, but she was happy with what they had for right now. She kissed the top of Siena’s head and smiled. “Thank you.”

“For what?” Siena asked.

“For believing I can be a better human, for trusting me, for loving me when you don’t have to.”

“No one has to love anyone else.”

“Family does.”

“Oh no!” Siena’s laugh was a mocking sound, and Jamie now had a hundred million questions running through her mind. And she sensed pain there, a deep pain that Siena wasn’t prepared to share. Still, she couldn’t wait to learn every moment that had formed this incredible woman she got to wake up with. “They don’t have to love you.”

“Maybe. But thank you, anyway.” Jamie shuffled, and Siena sat up.

There had never been any doubt in Jamie’s mind that the physical attraction between the two of them had always been electric. From their first touch, the physical contact had magnified that electricity a thousandfold. She had experienced more sexual confidence and exploration with Siena than she had with anyone in her past. And now, she knew this would be yet another new experience for her.

It wasn’t time for hard and dirty, or fast and furious.

It was time to use her body to enhance the emotions within her instead of as a wall against anyone getting closer. Slowly, allowing Siena all the time in the world to say no, or to stop her, Jamie shifted and straddled Siena’s legs.

“Oh, is that right?” Jamie teased and started kissing Siena’s face, over her closed eyes and her cheeks and down to herjawline. Siena tilted her head back, giving Jamie access to her neck.

“I have to make up for last night,” Jamie purred between kisses.

“No, you don’t.” Siena pulled back, gently moving Jamie so their eyes could meet. “You never owe me sex.”

“But—”

“No.” Siena’s voice was firm but not hard. “If sex was all I wanted from you, then we could just as easily still be playing that game. But as crazy as you make me, you never owe me sex.”

After a beat of silence, Jamie smiled and shook her head. “How do you do that?”

“Do what?”

“Say exactly what I need when I don’t even know what I need?”

“Because you don’t see just how amazing and beautiful you really are.”

“I’m not. But I’m trying to be.”

“Baby, you already are,” Siena said, and kissed Jamie again. “You’re wanting to show more people the true beauty inside of you, and that’s wonderful. But it’s already there. It really is.”

“Hmm,” Jamie said as she slowly moved her hips in Siena’s lap.

“Baby, we don’thaveto fuck.” Siena tucked a strand of Jamie’s hair behind one ear.

“I don’t want to fuck you,” Jamie said between kisses as her hips moved slowly against Siena’s crotch.

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