Page 67 of Zane

“So what are you going to do?” Lee asked as he relaxed back, stretching his legs out in front of him.

“Did Rori tell you what Kelsey wanted?”

“She did.”

“What do you think?”

Lee didn’t say anything right away, which told Zane he probably wasn’t going to like what he had to say.

Finally, Lee took a deep breath and said, “I think it’s too bad that Kelsey has gotten to the point where she feels that this is the best option.”

“What do you mean?”

“Do you think that any woman wants the man she loves—and ismarriedto—to make contact with a woman he once loved, still loves, in your case, and was planning a future with? She knows there’s a high risk that this is going to hurt her. And still, she’s doing it.”

“I haven’t decided what I’m going to do yet.”

“Don’t lie to yourself,” Lee said. “Even if you’re going to lie to me.”

Zane glared at Lee. “I’m not lying.”

“You are. You called me up here hoping I would validate your decision to contact Sarah.”

Sometimes Zane hated how well his siblings knew him. Especially Lee. Though his brother was always fairly level-headed, he could also be blunt with his observations.

“So what would you say I should do?”

“Let Sarah go. Accept that she ended things between you for a reason that was valid to her, and move on. You have a wife who needs you.”

“I don’t remember her at all.”

“Then date her and ask God to give you love for her.”

Kayleigh had said something similar, leaving Zane to wonder if his siblings had been having conversations about his situation.He mentally scoffed. Of course they were. Was the pastor in on it too? Because his sermon lined up with what Lee was saying.

“I think if I’m able to talk to Sarah, it will make doing that easier.”

“Like I said. You’ve already made up your mind.” Lee regarded him for a long moment. “I’ll be praying that you’re not headed down a road that will leave you with nothing.”

“Nothing?”

“If you don’t get the closure you want from Sarah and can’t move forward, you’re going to lose Kelsey. Or if you discover Sarah is single and decide you want to try with her again, you’ll also lose Kelsey.”

“But I’ll gain Sarah.”

“Without God’s blessing.”

Zane winced at that. But had it even been God’s will for him to be with Kelsey? After all, Kelsey wasn’t a Christian, and it seemed he hadn’t been living a Christian life either.

“I know the family wasn’t too keen on how things unfolded with Kelsey and you, and how quickly you got married,” Lee said. “But I think most of us have come to realize that she’s really a sweet woman. Rori adores her, and so does Carisa.”

Zane had seen that too, but it was a more abstract observation for him. Which he knew wasn’t a good thing.

The hardest part was that while his family had been his anchor for a long time, Sarah had also been an anchor for him. She’d been a huge part of his life. His anchor. His cheerleader. His companion. The love of his life.

“Are you willing to consider another option?” Lee’s question interrupted his thoughts.

“Maybe? Depends on the option.”

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