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“I’ve told you before. We were both inexperienced. Totally in over our heads.”

…

After a lot of research, I was ready to bind Addie’s neck and try some minimal choking. The scene started with getting us bothworked up through a series of flogging and breast play and then going to oral. When Addie was good and turned on, I tied a loop around her neck, kind of like a doggie choke collar.

I gave it a yank right when the orgasm was imminent, and Addie came.

“That was incredible!” she exclaimed when it was over.

I admitted it was amazing to watch. Amazing to exert that amount of control over another person’s pleasure.

I thought I’d found my calling. I was good at this. Good at taking control. At dominating. Perhaps I was a Dominant after all, though I disliked labels.

We practiced neck binding and breath control several more times, each time with me taking more and more of her air to induce erotic asphyxiation.

Until the last time—

…

My heart rate has increased, and I’m breathing more rapidly.

Forced meditation. Cold plunge. Clear your mind…

“You can’t stop now,” Skye says. “I just got used to the image in my mind of you going down on her. This isn’t fair.”

“This isn’t easy for me to talk about.” God, she has no idea.

“You’ve come this far.”

I breathe in, nod, and continue.

…

I was hard, so hard, and I had Addie going. Her eyes were closed, and I’d teased her with a few small yanks. “You want more?” I asked.

“Yes. Please, sir.”

Another soft yank. “More?”

“Yes, sir. Please.” Her voice was breathy, airy.

I circled her clit with my fingers while, with my other hand, Ipulled on the restraint around her neck. “Tell me you want it. Tell me you want me to choke you. Hard.”

“Yes, sir,” she said. “I want you to choke me hard. Harder, please, sir.”

I gave the rope one last yank as I thrust my cock into her.

It didn’t take long for me to come, and when I withdrew… She was limp. Addie had gone limp.

“Addie?”

No response.

I moved her onto her back. Her eyes were closed, her neck still bound. Quickly I removed the rope. “Addie! Wake up!”

I placed my fingers at her neck. Thank God. Her pulse was light, but it was there.

What the hell had I done?

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