“I want to feel you come on my dick.” He pulled me closer, guiding me to straddle him. “But next time, you’re going to ride my face.”
My breath caught. The images his words caused to flash through my mind went straight to my core, making it throb.
“You would like that, wouldn’t you?” He guided my hips forward, positioning me over his cock.
“Yes.” I swallowed thickly as he guided me down and stretched me. The burn and simultaneous pleasure had every nerve in my body awakening. “You’re so big,” I hissed.
He rotated my hips and lowered me another inch. “You can take it.”
The challenge in his eyes had me smiling, but after anotherinch, I dug my nails into his shoulders again and breathed through the delicious pain until I was fully seated on top of him.
“That’s a good girl.” His fingers bit into the flesh of my ass. “Now you need to move. Let me feel that pussy gripping my cock.”
Feeling empowered, I raised up, then slowly dropped down, watching his expression.
His pupils dilated and his jaw locked tight as I picked up my pace.
“Fuck, Sarah,” he growled. “Let me see those tits bounce.”
His dirty words inspired me, and I arched back, sliding up and down his hard length. It was incredible, the sense of control he was giving me. He was still bracing me, but only to help me move. He let me set the pace and decide how deep I wanted to go. It made me feel free. Powerful. Sexy. Confident. All the things I hadn’t felt in so long.
With one hand on my hip again, he slid the other to my stomach, then slid it low until he found my clit with his thumb and applied pressure, moving in circles.
“Right there.” My core tightened, sending pleasure shooting through my body.
Abruptly, Jay locked his arms around my back, startling me, then lifted and spun us so I was on my back and he hovered over me. He pounded hard into me as my orgasm hit me with forceful waves. Two more powerful thrusts, and he groaned, emptying inside me.
Panting hard, he lowered himself onto his forearms and pressed his forehead to mine.
As I caught my breath, a variety of emotions hit me hard. I wasn’t sure I’d ever experienced something so intimate, so intense. But the awe was accompanied by the fear of never experiencing it again.
Jay stood, offering me his hand. That smirk of his shooting straight to my core again.
He pulled me hard against his chest and wrapped his arms around me, resting his chin on top of my head. “Want to cuddle on the couch and watch the rest of the episode ofBrooklyn Nine-Ninewe started last night?”
I fought the surprise that bubbled up. Half of me expected him to bolt. I hated that all my shitty experiences with men had left me with such a jaded mindset. The last thing I wanted to do was let my past ruin this for me. For us.
“Sure.” I sagged against him and smiled. “Can we get dressed first?”
“I’d rather keep you naked.” His chest vibrated as he chuckled. “But yeah. Go put something comfortable on. I think I’ll run back to my place and grab myself a pair of shorts for the night.” He pulled back and pressed his lips briefly against mine.
“Okay.” I picked up my discarded clothes, clutched them to my chest, and headed toward my bedroom.
Quietly, so I didn’t wake Nora, I found a pair of pajama shorts and a T-shirt, and once I was dressed, I stopped in the bathroom to clean up. When I came out again, Jay had returned. We curled up together, watching TV, until I found myself yawning for the third time.
“You ready for bed?” he asked.
I nodded. “You’re really staying?” I was so thankful that Nora had let me put her down in her crib, and she was still asleep. I just hoped she stayed that way.
“Yeah.” He pressed his lips to my temple. “Every night if you let me.”
“What?” I popped up on my elbow and stared down at him.
“You still don’t get it, do you?” He shook his head, tucking my hair behind my ear. “You and Nora are it for me. This is where I want to be. Every night. Forever if you’ll let me.”
I laid my head on his chest. I absolutely wanted more than casual. But forever? Could I even trust my own judgment? At one time, I thought Drew loved me, wanted forever with me. Look how that turned out. I obviously sucked at seeing the red flags.
He let out a deep sigh, his chest vibrating. “I get that you might need more time to get there.” Pulling me tighter into his side, he pressed his cheek to the crown of my head. “I know you’re dealing with a lot. But I need you to know how I feel.”