Page 33 of Jagger

“Different how?”

“When I’m with her,” I start, but words quickly fail me, leaving me there with my mouth popped open like a little bitch.

Jesus Christ, I’mpathetic.

Sin apparently thinks so, too. His amusement grows in tenfold the longer I struggle to speak. “Well?”

“I don't know, man, I can't explain this shit.”

"Pussy's that good, huh?" he asks, waggling his eyebrows.

“Shut the fuck up,” I grate.

“Alright, alright,” he laughs, “so she’s not a weekend piece and you’re pussy whipped. What else?”

I flip him the bird but, somehow, manage to form some sort of a sentence. “She’s just…more. So much more. Exactly what I want and need.”

“Then why not go after her?”

“I have, she doesn’t answer me,” I explain, my tone defeated and desperate as I drop my head into my hands.

“I don’t mean calling her, Monroe. I mean physically going after her. Actions speak louder than words, bro. Women need to see that shit.”

“I don’t want another fucking door in my face though.”

“But do you want her?” he counters, snapping my gaze in his direction.

“Obviously, fucktard.”

“Then that’s a risk you’ll have to be willing to take. Think of it this way… If you go see her and she welcomes you with open arms, then good, that’s what you want, right? But if she shuts you down and tells you to fuck off, at least you’ll have a firm answer rather than being up in the air. Sometimes closure is better than nothing.”

Sometimes closure is better than nothing…

Of all the people to give me good advice, I never expected it to be Sin the emotionless dickhead.

Talk about mindblown right now.

“I don’t want fucking closure, I just want her,” I assert.

“Then stop moping your ass around here and go get her. I’ll cover for you,” he assures me, clapping me on the back.

So I left.

With Sinclair’s help, I jump in the LC and speed through the streets to Vida’s apartment, feeling more pumped than I have in weeks.

He’s right.

Vida needs to see how badly I both need and want her in my life. She needs to see how sorry I am.

All I can do now is come up with the best apology ever and hope she’ll even care.

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