Page 93 of Coerced Queen

And still, it’s not enough.

Never enough.

Wrapping my arms around her, I open my mouth to let the first incoherent thing that enters my mind tumble out, and I nearly bite off my tongue when my brain registers almost too late what I was about to say.

I love you.I love you so hard it fucking hurts.

I stumble back, leaving her cold and making her whimper.She’s bent over the armrest with my cum dripping down her thighs, a stunning picture of ruined innocence and defiled beauty.She needs me to take care of her, to clean her up and help her to her feet.Instead, I shove my cock back into my pants.I don’t look at her as I zip up.I don’t linger to examine what this means.My brain must be malfunctioning from all the pleasure.

That’s it.

That’s all it can be.

That’s what I tell myself when I leave her there in a mess and flee.

ChapterThirty

Anya

The next morning, I’m still sore inside from our rough sex.On top of that, my period starts for the first time after my pregnancy.I flinch at the cramps in my belly and the deeper ache in my womb when I get ready for work.

I woke up alone.Saverio must be having his physio session already.Why he needs to do it so early beats me.I guess old habits are hard to break.Maybe he misses his morning jogs and workouts.I don’t know what came over him that made him leave in such a rush after fucking me in the lounge yesterday.That’s not how he is.Normally, he takes care of me first.Livy and I had dinner alone while Saverio locked himself in his study, and when he finally came to bed, I was already asleep.

There’s no time to question him.Having overslept, I’m running late for an appointment with Nicole.While I dress, Livy plays with Claire in the upstairs television room that I’m turning into a playroom.After making a quick smoothie, I drink my liquid breakfast while breastfeeding Claire.Then I leave her with Livy and make it to Manhattan in record time.

“Sorry I’m late,” I say when I’m getting comfortable on the examination chair in Nicole’s consultation room.

“It’s five minutes.”She fits surgical gloves.“Don’t sweat about it.I’m going to do a pelvic exam to check the health of your uterus and cervix, exactly like last time.Take a deep breath and relax your muscles.”

I do as she’s instructed, doing my best to relax even though it’s not easy when I’m still raw from wild sex and every touch is uncomfortable.

“How are things at home?”she asks, her face scrunched up in concentration as she pushes a flat hand on my abdomen.

“Fine.”

“Are you still working crazy hours?”

I smile.“Same as you.”

She scoffs.“We should do a ladies’ night sometime soon again.It was fun, minus the hangover the next day.”

That makes me laugh.

She straightens and discards the gloves.“Everything looks fine.I’m going to do an ultrasound to get an exact read on the measurements, and then we’re done.”

“Do you want to come over for a barbecue this weekend?”I ask while she washes her hands at the basin before fitting a new pair of gloves.

She returns to squeeze a dollop of gel on my stomach.“Would love to.”Her smile is teasing.“Does Sav know he’s invited?”

“Saverio is slowly but surely coming around.He’s back at After Dark.”

“I heard.”She drags a transducer over my abdomen while studying the monitor.“You’re good for him.He’s different around you.You definitely have a positive influence.”

I chew my lip, considering that.

She stills.“You know that, right?The two of you were made for each other.”

“Yet he keeps on telling me he doesn’t love me.”

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