My own unease turns to shock when I listen to Giancarlo make a call. A few moments later, the girl is being escorted out of the house...for good.
"W-What—-"
Giancarlo only looks at me, and I snap my mouth shut.
Fuck.
I know manners mean everything to theirfamiglia,but what the fuck?
I march past him and throw the door open to his study.
He enters right behind me, and a crazy mix of emotions rages through me as I stare at him. He shuts the door, and as soon as he turns to face me again—-
"What the hell was that?" I burst out. "It's her first day, for fuck's sake. She just happened to be at the wrong place—-"
"That's reason enough."
"Are you fucking—-"
"The day Martino and his friends were able to abduct you—-"
My face whitens.
"It was because you were at the wrong place, too. Weren't you?"
I can't believe Giancarlo of all people would bring that up without warning.
"Fuck you—-"
"No, Sarica. Fuck them."
It's my first time to hear him drop an F-bomb, and it makes me take a step back—-
"Do you remember asking me why I saved you?"
—-not out of fear, but pain.
"Do you remember me telling you that it was something I needed to do?"
Because even though his tone hasn't changed at all, every word he speaks now is breaking my heart.
"And how I didn't care if I died trying?"
It's the past all over again, dammit.
One moment, I feel like I'm the fucking victim between us, but the next thing I know, I'm the one with a tiny head bump while it's Giancarlo once again bleeding to death in front of me.
"All these years, I couldn't make up my mind if I ever had to tell you the truth. It's one of the few things in life I found myself...indecisive. But after what happened tonight..."
His lips twist, and my own heart twists alongside it in shared pain.
"All it takes is for a person to be at the wrong place, Sarica, and you can lose everything...the way I lost everything."
His face has turned into an expressionless mask.
And yet I could've sworn I heard his heart crack with every word he uttered.
"The night my father and grandfather were ambushed...I should've been there. With them. But I wasn't. I was at the wrong place. And...that was all it took."