Page 30 of Until We Fall

“Nope,” I say. “I’m hoping it’s time for an explanation.”

He pauses, swallows, then squints at me. “So, two guys.”

I smile. “I’m with you so far.”

“And at least one has to be uncut.”

“Got it.”

“And that one, he…” He scrapes his teeth over his bottom lip, and it’s all I can do to not kiss him again.

“Go on.”

“He stretches his foreskin over the head of the other’s dick and… they jack off together.”

My brows rise. “Like the uncut one swallows the other’s dick with his dick?”

He nods, hair sticking out from the pillow with static cling. “It’s supposed to be pretty intense. At least, in all the books I’ve—” He sucks in a breath.

“You’ve read about it more than once?”

“Uh, possibly?”

“How many have you read?”

“All that I could find?”

I clear my throat. “Because it’s something that turns you on?”

His eyes flick down me. It’s a quick movement, jerky and fast, then he focuses back on my face, but I definitely saw it. I did more than see it, Ifeltit. He scoped out my dick. For sure this time.

“You know…” I’m grinning. “I’m uncut.”

“I know,” he whispers. “You’ve mentioned that.”

“I have?” I’m not sure why I would mention that specific detail, but it must have come up forsomereason.

“I guess it stood out to me.”

I laugh. I’m smiling so big. But it fades as I stare across at him. There are things I’d like to ask.

“So, your sexuality,” I start. “I’ve never known you to date anyone.”

His eyes move around my face. “I’m gay. I’ve, uh, had a boyfriend before. Before IFU.”

Thoughts cross his face. There’s so much there, heavy emotions spanning across his features.

I reach out to trap his hand in mine, threading our fingers. “Yesterday, you mentioned a guy. Was it this boyfriend?”

His face blanks. “It’s not…” He chooses his words carefully. “It’s not anything that you need to worry about.”

Jesus, his walls are high. They’re so high I didn’t even realize they werethere. Like he locks it all down inside of himself. Three and a half years, and he’s never mentioned this.

“What if you just tell me?” I ask.

“Just tell you?”

“Yeah, why not?”

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