Page 55 of Twink Heart

?“Did he tell you this was nothing more than sex?”

?“He… He said that he wanted to help me figure out who I was and that he’d be my safe place to experiment if I wanted it. That I didn’t owe him anything.”

?“Holy fuck…” Adam gasped. “That dude is fucking head over heels for you!”

?“He said that like three days after we met!”

?“Then he had a huge crush on you already. That or he’s a world class manipulator.”

?“He’s not that,” I replied with certainty. “I know he’s not.”

?“Well, my guess is he already loves you, Booboo. But he knows that this is your first time with a guy and he doesn’t want to make you feel pressured or rushed.” I could hear him smiling again. “If you love him, you should tell him.”

?“Even if it’s only been a couple of weeks?”

?“Sometimes the heart just knows what it wants.”

?“I just… I don’t want to be tricked again… that was too painful.”

?“Think of it this way. Would you rather spend the rest of your life being miserable and avoiding people? Or would you rather have some happiness along the way even if it doesn’t last forever?”

?“I…”

?“The correct answer is the second one,” Adam chuckled. “Just so you know. I don’t want to watch you wander through life miserable and alone because sometimes things go wrong. Go tell that boy you love him, be happy, and enjoy every moment you can. That’s all you can do.”

?“You’re right,” I sighed at last, knowing I couldn’t fight him. “And I’m sorry for making you feel bad.”

?“Don’t worry. Someday I’ll find the guy that’s right for me. Even if I have to fuck every dude in the state, I will eventually find him.”

?“That sounds like a lot of work.”

?“It’s God’s work,” he replied. “The greatest work a man can do.”

?“Somehow I doubt that.”

?“Try bottoming sometime, Booboo. You’ll change your mind, I promise.”

?“What makes you think I haven’t?”

?“Babe, I’ve been gay for nearly three centuries. Believe me, I know your butthole is a virgin.”

?I couldn’t help laughing. “You’re dumb.”

?“You love it.”

?“You’re right.”

?“Now, quit talking to me and go get that boy!”

?“Alright, alright. I’ll talk to you later.”

?“See ya, Booboo.”

?“And Adam?”

?“Yeah?”

?“Thanks for being such a good friend.”

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