Page 7 of The Royal Beast & His Rising Queen

"I'm not angry, are you??", she asked him softly...

"No, not anymore... I'm sorry I punished you that way...", he apologized but this time she didn't accept his apology, she didn't feel like it...

"I know I had hurt you badly and you would have probably killed the person who committed it if it wasn't me, but still my wounds wouldn't disappear, Rana sa, you reopened those fateful days of mine which I'm trying hard to forget... I'm confused... I don't know what to do, if this is what my whole life is going to be, then I don't want it, I don't want to live like this...", she said and her words scared and angered him too...

"What do you mean??", he asked, his eyes reddened with fury, what is she implying at?? She is intimidated by it but still decided to put forth her opinion...

"Rana sa... I was punished for reasons unknown to me, you don't know how hard it was for me to come out of it but I was trying and got successful to some extent, but the same thing repeated, this time I knew I went against your word, but the reasons that made you punish me like this are unknown... I realized, no matter how much I try, I'll still be facing the same fate if I stay as your wife... and I don't want to face this pain, at the same time, I can't leave you, not only because of the promises I made as the queen but also as your wife, my heart wouldn't allow me, I am too much into you that I can't come out of it now, even if I try my whole life... I don't know what to do... I never hated my life as much as I'm doing it now, I used to always cherish it, I used to see a bright light even if darkness is what I'm surrounded with always, but now ironically, I don't see light Rana sa, even though now I have everything I ever dreamed of... why??", she asked and he is stunned by her words...

Now that he thought of it, he felt the depth of the sh*t he was in, he hated himself for torturing her so much, but he always thought about the physical pain he gave her, the wounds he left on her soul are much deeper, he never provided any explanation or reasons for his behaviour and before she could completely recover he repeated the same thing, though he didn't hurt her physically, he still hurt her, the least he could do is tell her the reasons but he didn't... he knew he couldn't tell her the reasons but he just realized how wrong it is to her...

"Isha...will you ever forgive me??", Abhyansh asked, suddenly fear gripped his heart, his sins are too many and he had hurt her a lot, what if she never forgave him??

"I don't know Rana sa", she answered honestly... "all I know is I love you a lot and I would never leave you", she added, she can sense her husband's fear and she needed to assure him, also that's the truth, though she isn't sure about forgiving him, she couldn't leave him, he is much more important to her, maybe more than everything in her life including her brother, her parents or her pride of being a Rajput...

He hugged her tightly hearing her...

"I know, I won't let you leave me", he said in his BEASTly tone which made her giggle... things are bad between them but them in each other's arms gave them peace and the confidence that all other issues can be resolved soon... "call me Rana sa or even better, by my name, but never 'Maharaj', I take pride when everyone calls me that but not you, it irks me if you do so...", he said and it sounded so cute to her... she didn't know he could be this cute even when the terms are bad between them...

"Okay, Rana sa... now let me go and make you another cup of coffee, and I'll be sending it with someone, please have it, no tantrums", she said, and he looked at her with amusement... her courage always turns him on... she dared to say that to his face that he throws tantrums...

"No, I want you to bring it...", he said, he wanted to see her again... he didn't want to let her go in the first place...

"Because of your stunt, I didn't have my coffee or snacks, I am hungry, I didn't have my lunch either... so have your coffee calmly", she said, and he glared at her, pulling her to his lap...

"Why didn't you have your lunch?? Is this how you take care of yourself??", he scolded her

"Did you have your lunch Rana sa??", she asked

"That's not the point here", he said glaring at her, she is a bit afraid of his strict tone but kept her calm...

"Answer me", she said softly

"I wasn't hungry", he answered

"I wasn't hungry too", she answered...

"Why??", he asked

"For the same reason you weren't hungry", she said with a small smile, and her argument brought a slight twitch on his lips which widened her smile...

"You won't skip meals from now on... no matter what... I hate it when you neglect your health, what if you fall ill??", he asked, concern evident in his eyes...

"I'll be fine Rana sa, don't worry... I hardly fall sick, I have had a strong immune system right from childhood", she said but that didn't calm him...

"Don't be complacent, take care of your health... ", he said cupping her face... he kissed her forehead, and cheeks, then about to take her lips in his but she jerked away...

"I have to go now", she said and walked away, leaving him frustrated...

She sent him coffee and this time, even though he wanted to smash the cup to the floor, didn't do it following his wife's orders... he is afraid she would get mad if he threw tantrums again... he is determined to win her forgiveness and set things between them as soon as possible no matter what...

Days passed but the things between the couple are the same no matter how much effort Abhyansh put in, his wife didn't ignore him but she is aloof... maybe she is angry with the way things are going more than with him... BEAST tried to bring things like they were before the fight but nothing worked, every day he is remembered of how happy they were on their day out, he wanted that Isha back but nothing seems to work...

At first, she even refused to sleep in his arms, but when he had trouble sleeping, she moved to his arms and those few hours are the only peaceful time he had...

One day, in the evening, Isha went to give Abhyansh his coffee. He is surprised to see his wife there as these days she always sends coffee with servants... he hoped that she finally had a change of heart...

"Rana sa... your coffee...", she said, and he took it with a nod signing her to sit to which she shook her head...

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