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I won’t.

I can’t.

I know that I would very much end up regretting it and I don’t think I could live with myself. After everything that has happened, I think that even Ruka would agree with me that he doesn’t want to force it. He wants to make sure that I know we are in love before anything crazy ends up happening.

“Do you really think that I would be a good Queen?” I finally ask her, seeing how she looks up at me with surprise, “If I’m being completely honest, I don’t think that I will be and I worry that Ruka is going to figure that out as well. I’m not the perfect person when it comes down to relationships and a part of me worries that maybe it is not going to go the way that I need it to. What if all of this ends up being blown up in my face and then it is ruined? I don’t know what I would do if that ended up happening.”

My feelings are valid, that much I’m going to say right now and I’m trying to not worry about anything else. I see the way she is looking at me, as if she is trying to decide if I’m being one hundred percent serious. I have no reason to lie, I think that she must have figured that out by now and I wish that she would just listen to me either way. When I loved Hayden, it was easy because no one knew but Ruka is the crown prince. He is the person that everyone looks up to and he is going to end up choosing me?

He wants me.

I don’t even know at this point, and I wish that I could figure it out. I know that this whole thing might turn into a big mess but I’m trying to not worry about it now. If I push it too much, I know that I would end up regretting it and then there would definitely be nothing else for me to do. When I look at Ruka, I know that I’m going to be alright.

If he is by my side, I highly doubt anything is going to stand in my way.

“Well, we will support you no matter what.” Queen Maye assures me, a softness on her face that makes my heart skip a beat, “no one is expecting you to be perfect, let me tell you that right now. We just want to make sure that you do everything the way that it needs to be done.”

I’m grateful to her because I have honestly been worrying over the stupidest shit. I don’t know how to make it okay, I think I have figured this out already, but it’s like nothing else that I have dreamed about. I want to be closer to Ruka but I’m worried that I will never be good enough.

How can I be good enough for him?

I don’t even know at this point, but I’d rather do this one way or another.

I just hope that he might end up feeling the same way.

Chapter Six

Ruka

The music courses through my ears, feeling a little bit nervous as I stand at the end of the aisle. I should have known that mom would end up getting her way but I don’t know if I should be mad at her or if I should have thanked her for making it so Jessie would not be able to run away from me. After everything that has happened so far, it’s kind of an odd feeling if I’m being truthfully honest and I wish that I could end up doing a lot more in that sense.

When I wait for her to walk down that aisle, I know that there is going to be something that comes from it. It is going to be a moment that changes everything, and I wouldn’t be able to ever do a damn thing about it. When I know she is going to walk through those doors and look like a complete angel, it makes me crave to be so much closer to her.

I ache to be by her side.

I don’t want anything standing in my way.

That is what I NEED right now.

“Are you ready?” Mom asks me cheerfully, a glimmer in her eyes as she must know something that I don’t, “Don’t you worry, she looks like an absolute angel.”

I don’t know what she meant by that, but I figured I was going to learn soon enough. I just ignore her a little bit as I’m just trying to pay attention to where Jessie is going to come from.

As the doors opened, I didn’t know what I was expecting but when I saw her, it was really like a punch to the gut. My lips parted with surprise when I saw her, seeing how she is dressed in a beautiful white gown that makes her look like utter perfection. How can she look like that?

How in the world has she managed to capture my heart all over again?

And by the way she is looking at me, I know she feels the same way. I know she longs to be close to me. She doesn’t want to dare hide anything away. I can see how she looks at me, the way her eyes twinkle when she knows that I’m going to be her number one person.

My fated mate, that’s the easiest way to put it.

It’s like nothing else, nothing more that I could ever imagine. When I look at her, it brings a light inside of me that is desperate for a lot more, but I have no clue what I’m going to do about it. Truthfully, I have been dreaming of the moment that I would have my fated mate in my arms and she is here now and I’m not going to let her go.

I’m going to love her for as long as she will let me.

That is what I aim to do now.

Nothing more.

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