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I should have been upset just because of the fact that she is perfect in every way, but I decided to bite my tongue and not think about anything else. When I look at her, I just know that I’m not going anywhere and I’m not going to dare let anything else stand in my way. I think she is truthfully feeling the same way and she doesn’t want to lose me either. I can tell just by the look on her face that it is the way that she feels and she’s trying to not do anything else about it.

“I’m okay with what you want.” I assure her, trying to not let anything get between us, “I promise.”

I just hold her hand beneath the table, not giving a damn if anyone notices. I want them to notice. I want them to see that she is mine and I’m not going to let anything tear us apart. I’d rather die than let anything like that happen. I can promise that right here and now. They better hope that after everything that has happened, I’m not going to lose my mate because I would surely destroy them in the process.

I can promise them that.

Chapter Five

Jessie

“I think we need to find you the perfect wedding dress.” Mom and Queen Maye are gushing over me, making me a little uncomfortable because I didn’t want to do dress shopping yet, “you’re the future Queen so you have to honestly look the part. I hope that we’re not burdening you with what we want from you, but I would hope that you would enjoy every part of this.”

I just smile at them because there’s no way that I’m going to be able to do anything else about it. It makes me feel a little good because there’s no way that I could have done anything like this without them. It makes me wonder if it is truly going to be alright but when I see how they look at me, I have this feeling that it is going to turn around and be a lot more for me. I don’t think that I have ever craved being so close to someone like I do with Ruka, not even when I was wanting Hayden.

It's like he is irrelevant now.

Dad ended up switching Hayden with another guard and I think that I’m okay with it. I just needed some space from him sothat way I could work on my relationship with Ruka and not let anything hold me back.

It’s quite odd the mate bond.

For the longest time, I thought that I would die if I wasn’t so close to Hayden but now it’s like he doesn’t even matter anymore. It makes me a bit sick to my stomach because I do care about him, but I know that it was never going to work out. I couldn’t be with someone who would never be able to go anywhere with me. I think that he figured this out as well and wasn’t going to try to bother with it because he knew this whole thing would just end up being a mess in my face.

I think that after everything that has happened between Hayden and I, I deserve to just take a step back and rest. I don’t need to worry about something until it actually happens and I’m not going to think about it. I just know how much I love and want him, and I’m not going to try to worry about anything else when it comes down to it because how else can I?

I know that Ruka would flip if Hayden tried anything again, so I don’t want to risk it.

“You are going to be the perfect Queen.” Queen Maye tells me, wrapping her arms around me as I’m assaulted by the intense smell of her perfume, “I know that my son might not be the easiest one to handle but I can assure you that he is going to love you no matter what. He is going to make sure that you’re content and he would never let anyone hurt you.”

I don’t know about that, but I trust her on it. As much as I do like Ruka and he is my fated mate, I do worry about what might end up happening if I allow this to go too far. When I saw how he was looking at me, it was like nothing else mattered, and we were in our own world. He was looking at me like I was the only one for him and he didn’t care who might have glanced his way.

He just wanted to be with ME.

I saw the beautiful glimmer in his eyes when he turned to look at me, a look that I knew all too well and it made me long for a lot more. I couldn’t quite decipher it, wishing that I could have pulled him closer, but I also knew it wouldn’t be such a smart idea. If I ended up falling hard for him, I wondered what kind of person that would make me.

Would I be a bad person?

A good person?

Was it just someone who fell for the mate bond?

Did I just want to dream about anything else?

I don’t even know at this point, and I just wanted to be much closer. I wanted to love him, and I didn’t care about anything else. But when Queen Maye is smiling at me, it makes me a little sick to my stomach because I worry about failing all of them.

I don’t know how to be the Queen.

I don’t know how to love anyone the right way.

I don’t know if I’m even going to be good enough for Ruka.

That is what I worry about.

She must have seen the hesitation in my gaze, and she gently rests her hand on my shoulder, giving me a beautiful smile that is enough to make my heart flutter from nerves.

“Don’t you worry about a thing.” She finally tells me, making me wonder what is going to happen next, “I can assure you that after everything is said and done, you’re never going to regret being with him. The only thing you will regret is not falling for him quicker.”

I believe her even though he is her son. There’s no reason for her to lie to me, I think that I have come to that decision pretty quickly. Although the best thing for me to do is probably to just take it one step at a time but I worry that I am going to let my emotions get the better of me. It would end up being a dangerous thing if I did and I can’t let it get the best of me.

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