Page 35 of Peaceful Chaos

I nod, but I'm not sure if I'm agreeing or placating her. Silence falls between us again, and I quickly jot down the information I need to complete my half of the bibliography.

As soon as I'm satisfied I've got all the information I need, I stand up. "I'll see you in class tomorrow." I shove my things back in my bag and walk away from the table.

The guards step out of the shadows as we move toward the door. Ford watches me as I stomp toward them. He grabs my elbow, stopping me before we step outside. "Are you okay?"

I let him pull me aside, but shrug his hand off. "Yeah. Just pissed off. My partner went on and on about me being too young to be married. It wasn't anything I haven't heard before. At least she didn't ask me if I was pregnant."

He cringes. "You guys never mentioned what the test said. I mean I assumed since you didn't that—"

"I'm not pregnant."

Ford exhales. "Good. You deserve time to be young."

My chin tips up defiantly. "Marrying Sin wasn't a mistake."

I cross my arms watching as he tries not to say what he's clearly thinking. "Just say it, Ford. I can see there's something you want to say. Something you've wanted to say for a while I'm guessing."

Ford shifts his weight back and forth. "Don't be pissed, but would you have married him if you weren't afraid you would lose each other?"

"Ugh," I groan. "First off, telling me not to get pissed doesn't prevent it from happening." I glare at him, but he's still looking at me like he expects an answer to his ridiculous question. "What does it really matter why we got married when we did? This is where we would have ended up eventually. I know I don't want to live my life without him. Yeah, I'm nineteen. I get it, but I'm also someone who has lived my life caged. I know better than most to appreciate the good things in my life. They aren't a sure thing. Now that I've found him, I can't imagine life without him. After all the things we've been through, that's what I'm most afraid of."

I push past him and climb into the front seat of the vehicle. I'm done with this night and all the voices trying to worm their way into my head. Fucking Ford. He should know there's more to Sin and me than a knee-jerk response to trauma.

When we pull up in front of the apartment Sin is pacing in front of the door. As soon as the SUV stops, he's there yanking open my door and pulling me into his arms.

"Hello to you too," I chuckle as he squeezes me tight.

Without saying a word to the guys he carries me toward our apartment. I wave to Ford and Teddy as we move inside right before he kicks the door shut.

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