Page 84 of Breathing Without You

“You boys having fun?” The brunette next to me asks with a sexy side smirk on her face. Shit what am I doing I can’t think her smile is sexy.

“Yeah, we’re havin’ a good time, what about you ladies?” I ask them, feeling the alcohol so I’m in the mood to talk a little to get Emerald off my mind.

“Yeah, we are, what about your friend, is he having a good time?” She leans forward pointing at Axton.

“Hell yeah, I’m having a good time. You ladies want a shot? It’s on me?” He winks at them. And I sorta wish I could be like him and not feel my feelings right now.

“Sure, what shot do you guys wanna do?” The blonde with her asks.

“We’ve been doing Fireball, are you ladies fine with that?” I ask them hoping they say no because I’m now regretting the decision to talk to them. I feel like I’m cheating, and I don’t like it, even if I am single now.

“Sure, I’m down,” the brunette giggles, scooting closer to me. Great.

“Hell yeah, I love Fireball,” the blonde yells to us as she comes and stands next to Axton.

“Hey, Carsten,” Axton yells to him even though he’s across the bar.

He holds his finger up and grabs a beer from the refrigerator before handing it to the guy at the other end.

“Hey guys, what's up?” Yep, he’s buzzed. His body sways a little as he stands there.

“Ohh, there’s three of you guys?” The brunette smiles, hand on her chin biting her finger a little.

“I’m happily engaged and have two kids at home, I’m good. No offense,” he shouts out quickly before they start flirting with him too.

“Damn,” she pouts and then looks back at me. “Well, you’re single right?” She bites her thin bottom lip, and usually I would find that attractive even if she didn’t have full, plump lips like Emerald’s. I still would have found her really fucking attractive, hell I may have even tried to bring her and her friend home, I’d never turn down two kinky looking girls and a threesome. But none of those thoughts excite me, not even one of those thoughts made my cock twitch.

“It’s complicated, but I’m not here to talk about relationships. Let’s do this shot,” I grumble trying to change the subject.

“Well alright.” She gives me a pout, it’s cute and all but nothing worth changing my mind over.

“Fireball?” Carsten holds up the bottle as we nod our heads, and he walks away. He comes back with six shot glasses, and I can’t help but laugh knowing one of them is for him.

“Chase, get your ass over here,” Carsten yells to his brother as he walks over shaking his head.

“Carsten, this is your last one, asshole. You’re supposed to be working.” He laughs it off like he’s not pissed but no one missed the angry tone.

“So, are you single?” the blonde and brunette ask at the same time and laugh as they look at each other in shock.

“Sorry, I’m sorta taken, my uhh girl should be here shortly.” He sounds really fucking confused as he says that. Maybe he’s just not used to having a girlfriend or something. Him and Saylor started secretly dating before they told us. They snuck around like we wouldn’t catch on. Idiots. It was very obvious that they were obsessed with each other, but they both tried to deny it.

“Damn, you guys are no fun.” She gives us a dramatic pout before laughing. At least she’s not truly upset.

“Right, I was thinking the same thing,” the blonde pouts right along with her friend, but I think hers is actually serious.

After taking the next shot, I head outside to get some fresh air and to get the fuck away from those chatty fucking girls because they were driving me fucking crazy. The urge to text Emerald is so strong, especially with the buzz I have going on. I miss her so much and it makes me wonder if this feeling will ever go away. Then it takes me back to the thoughts I’ve been having. Was I too harsh or did I make the right decision? And I fucking hate second guessing myself like that. Right as I’m about to head in the guys come out to with drinks for some fresh air and we end up talking outside for the rest of it before Axton and I head on home, he probably shouldn’t drive because I know If I’m drunk, he’s gotta be drunk too and it’s a stupid ass decision we both make. Unless he started sobering up and I’m just too fucked up to pay attention.

“I’m heading into bed, man, see you tomorrow,” Axton says as he walks through the front door stumbling a little, you can tell the alcohol is kicking in more now that we’re home.

“Night man,” I call out after him.

I head over to my truck and lay the tailgate down hopping up on it before heading inside. I love being outside. I’d rather be outside relaxing with my guitar or someone’s company than inside watching TV anyways. And even though I’m outsidealone, I’d rather be alone with my thoughts outside than trapped behind my bedroom walls. Plus, I’m stupid and hoping to see Emerald on her front stairs again. This is the only spot in the driveway where you can see her stairs, because the bushes around her front porch block them unless you’re standing here right where I park.

But with the way her house looks, it looks like she’s probably sleeping. I look down at my phone to look at the time and see that it’s one-thirty in the morning, so she’s probably drunk and passed out. She’s probably naked too since she prefers to sleep with no clothes on, and picturing her naked in her bed makes my cock hard.

I lie back in my truck bed, closing my eyes. I picture her on her knees, arms tied behind her back and her mouth open with her tongue out. Waiting to suck my cock just how I like it, well just like she likes it too since she’s obsessed with sucking my cock.

I picture my fingers in her pussy thrusting in and out of her while she’s choking on my cock and swallowing it down, her favorite thing to do. My piercings scraping her throat as she moans out from how turned on she is and I have to reach down and readjust my cock from how hard I am.

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