Page 76 of Breathing Without You

I’ve been better.

Carsten

Wanna talk about it?

Creedence

I’ll talk but not about what happened, still too fresh.

Carsten

Understandable bro just know I’m here.

Creedence

Thanks man, appreciate you.

Carsten

Of course. You going to the shop today?

Creedence

Was thinking about it, but now I don’t know what I want to do.

Carsten

Come to the shop then we’ll get lunch at the Diner. Both girls are off today so we’ll only be lucky enough to deal with Stacy.

Creedence

Sounds good be there in about an hour.

I slowly get up, taking a couple deep breaths before heading to my kitchen for some water and something for my head, along with something to eat to help with this fucking hangover headache and this stupid fucking sick feeling from drinking on an empty stomach like a dumbass.

After eating I head outside to my front porch, avoiding the garage because Emerald left the helmet in there and right now, I’m not in the mood to look at it and bring back more memories. I barely slept last night between flashbacks of my brother's accident and then dealing with this terrible feeling of heartache. God, I feel so fucking empty, and alone and it’s all my fault, yet it’s her fault at the same time for bringing me back to that place when I wasn’t ready. I can’t deal with the demons of my past when I’m being forced to. I need to be ready in order to accept help.

I sit down on my front porch after looking over at Emeralds yard to make sure she wasn’t out yet because I’m not ready to see her just yet. Or any time soon.

I take a sip of the coffee I made, and I stare out at the street not even bothering to look at my phone. I have no one to talk to now and I just talked to Carsten. I don’t feel like talking to anyone anyways, I just want to be alone today. I’m sure hangingout with Carsten after work will be better for me mentally than sitting home. My feelings are all over the place right now I don’t even know what I want. I take a seat on the top step when my phone vibrates in my hand.

Axton

I heard what happened man, I’m so sorry. Let me return the favor and get you out of the house tonight bro.

Creedence

It’s ok man, appreciate it.

Creedence

But ehh I’m not sure if I’m down for that or not.

Axton

Oh that's cool. Glad I didn’t ask.

Axton

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