Page 67 of Possession

It meant more to him than he could express that Tomas had taken the time to plan something just for him.

“Do you mind if I ask you some questions?” Tomas asked.

Vinnie hummed. “Not at all.”

“I’ve been doing some research, but I still wanted to hear from you about the kinds of humiliation you like.”

Nodding, he kept his hand on the back of Tomas’s neck, playing with the short hair he found there and just doing his best to express without words how much the night meant to him.

“For me,” he said slowly, “it isn’t about being publicly humiliated or made to wear silly outfits to embarrass me or things like that. It’s more… about the words you use during sex. The things youmakemedo during sex.”

Tomas was silent, thinking on that for a minute, but Vinnie didn’t mind. He loved how seriously he took it. That he valued Vinnie so much he wanted to know exactly how to make things perfect for him.

“Like calling you names?” Tomas clarified.

Vinnie nodded. “Nothing homophobic or racist, just things like?—”

“Telling you what a dirty whore you are?”

Vinnie sucked in a breath, his fingers flexing against the back of Tomas’s neck and giving him away before he could even say anything.

Tomas chuckled. “Seems like a yes.”

“It’s a yes,” Vinnie assured him. “Things like that, definitely.”

“Okay. What else? What do you like to be made to do?”

He sucked his lip into his mouth, running his teeth over the flesh as he tried to articulate the things that had always been a bit of a jumbled mess in his head. “I like feeling… used, like I’m only there for your pleasure. I like being forced to suck cock and held down and fucked… even if I say to stop.”

Tomas cleared his throat, reaching down to adjust himself in his dress pants. “And what about the disciplinary stuff? Do you like that outside of scenes?”

Vinnie hesitated. Did he? Sometimes he wasn’t even sure anymore what he liked or what he wanted since it had been so long since he’d truly been able to get the things that he used to crave. It was like… the longer he went without, the more he convinced himself he didn’t actuallyneedanything more.

“Gatito,” Tomas said as they passed the “Welcome to Ridgewood” sign. “You got real quiet over there.”

“I know, sorry.”

“You don’t have to be sorry. You just need to tell me what you’re thinking. I can’t read your mind, and I don’t want to do anything unintentionally that’ll upset you or cause you harm—physically or emotionally.”

Vinnie swallowed and started to pull his hand away, but Tomas grabbed it before he could wrap his arms around himself, threading their fingers together and placing them on his thigh.

“You don’t have to close up on me. Take your time. I’m right here.”

“It’s just…” Vinnie said slowly, haltingly. “I don’t… I think maybe I don’t need much dominance outside of the bedroom or a planned scene.”

“Say more, gatito.”

He sighed heavily. “I used to like disciplinary activities outside of scenes and sex, used to like a nice maintenance spanking every once in a while to keep my head clear, but I… I’ve gotten by fine without it, so I think maybe my needs changed.”

Tomas made a soft sound of understanding. “Maybe. Or maybe you’ve spent too long fulfilling the needs of someone else, and now you’re not sure what you need foryou. Is that about the shape of it?”

“Maybe,” he whispered, feeling like shit, like he was talking bad about Mason when he wasn’t there to defend himself. “It’s not like he asked for?—”

Tomas squeezed his hand, silencing him. “No, you don’t have to do that. I know he didn’t ask you to fulfill those needs. It’s just the dynamic you two ended up falling into over the years, probably from being on your own and completely dependent on each other at such a young age. And if you truly are a switch, that’s fine. If you want to help me dominate him sometimes, we can do that, and then you can submit to me at other times.”

Did he want that? He’d topped Mason in the past, but did he really want todominatehim?

“But if what you really crave is submitting to me all the time and not having to constantly worry about and caretake for another sub? I can handle you both, I swear to you. I just need to understand what direction we’re going. We can change course on the way if it’s not working for you. Nothing’s set in stone here, but just give me a little bit to go on.”

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