Page 120 of Forgive You

Sometimes I curse myself for falling for Jacob’s smooth and silky words so fast, because not long after I started dating Jacob, I couldn’t deny there were also feelings growing for Jason. But it was never the right situation.

Jacob and I broke up and Jason was fooling around with someone else.

Jacob and I got back together, but somehow, I was spending more time with Jason.

Jacob and I broke up, and Jason moved to LA.

It’s been going like this for years, and up until the last, and final, time I broke up with Jacob, I never had the balls to confess how I really felt for Jason.

Howjust friendsnever really cut it for me.

And now I wonder if I waited too long. If I fucked it all up by being such a coward, ruining what little thing was going on between us.

“Timing seems right now? Or is it not?”

“Yeah, I guess so.”

If only I can get this hiccup out of the way. As if he can fucking hear me, my phone buzzes around on the white marble, my heart having a hiccup of his own.

Jason.

Fuck.

I can almost feel his annoyance dripping through the device, a scrunched-up expression on his beautiful face flickering across my vision.

“You need to take that?” Charlotte asks.

I do.I really, really do.

“Nope.” I click my phone off, plastering a smile on my cheeks as I look at my best friend. “Tonight, I’m gonna hang with you.”

And pretend my life isn’t a shitshow.

I will call Jason tomorrow.

I will.

I really will.

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JASON: How are the kids doing?

JULIE: We just ate spaghetti. Logan decided to wear the sauce. *Picture*

JASON: He looks like a monster.

JULIE: He is.

JULIE: But a very cute one.

JASON: That he is. Are they going to bed soon?

JULIE: Making a bath for him now.

JASON: Can I come over later? I miss you.

JULIE: Promised I was gonna watch a movie with Charlotte. Sorry.

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