Page 28 of The Night We Lost Him

“I’m not saying it’s likely.”

“Oh, I’m glad you don’t think it’s likely that our uncle pushed our father off a cliff.”

I look out the window, refusing to engage with this level of insanity. Whatever Joe was keeping from us, it didn’t necessarily mean there was a nefarious decision behind it. There were much simpler explanations. Maybe our father didn’t want Sam to know certain things about his past. He certainly kept the compartments separate when he was alive. He certainly fought to keep all sorts of things private. What if there was a reason for that? Beyond what we know?

Maybe Joe was being loyal to our father in ensuring we don’t get to know, even now.

“You can call it whatever you want,” he says. “I’m telling you that Joe has his own agenda here. He knows that Dad was having a hard time these last couple of months. Anyone who was spending time with Dad knew it.”

His words hit me, catching in my throat. I hate that I can’t properly speak to how my father was doing in his last few months, not in the way I normally would be able to, not in the way I should be able to speak to it.

“Did you notice how agitated Uncle Joe got when you mentioned Dad’s history with Cece?” I ask. “Were you just fishing or do you have any actual evidence they were involved?”

“Rumor is that they had a thing a long time ago.”

That stops me. “Like how long?”

“Like forever ago. Like when they were in college or something… I don’t know exactly. It was only a rumor.”

I think about Uncle Joe’s face even when Cece’s name came up, like Sam was tripping into a secret Joe wanted to pretend didn’t exist. Thinking of his face, it feels like it could be more than a rumor.

I pull out my phone and do a search for Cece Salinger, but my coverage is spotty, images of her not fully loading.

“Salinger Group’s headquarters is in Century City,” Sam says.

I look up from my phone. “In Los Angeles?”

He nods. “It’s worth a shot to try and talk to Cece, don’t you think?” he says. “We could try and talk to her on the way to the airport.”

I don’t answer him, which is the only answer he needs.

Sam checks the rearview, the highway in the distance. “At the very least, maybe she can enlighten us. She has no reason to lie about what happened.”

“We don’t know that.”

“There’s reason number two,” he says.

* * *

We are on the 101, passing the Summerland exit, when Jack calls.

“Hey. I’m just checking in before the dinner rush,” he says. “You doing okay?”

“Yeah, we’re heading back to Los Angeles…”

I look over at Sam, who is speeding down the highway. He must feel my eyes because he turns to me too.

“Who is that?” Sam asks.

Sam and Jack haven’t met. I assume my father has told him I’m in a relationship, but I don’t want to get into any details of my personal life with him, so I just shake my head, not answering him.

“What time do you land?” Jack asks.

“A little before six.”

“I’ll have the coffee on.”

I start to smile, that making me feel sad and happy at once. My desire to head home to Jack laced with the discomfort I feel in my body, in my chest, at the promise of that very thing.

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