Page 36 of Goodbye To Tomorrow

"That's right!" He said and smiled so hard his eyes crinkled at the corners.

I was shining. A young woman having fun for the first time in her life, wild and with a person I liked—it seemed like a dream. We were drinking, laughing and truly happy...swaying to the music.

"It's so loud in here!" I shouted near his ear a he bent his head to hear me. He just grinned and pulled my body closer. Our professional relationship was forgotten, and we were simply having fun.

"Do you want to take a break and go somewhere else?" He asked, with sparkling eyes. I knew that sparkle; I felt shivers down my spine when his hand touched my back. But because I was tipsy, I was going with the flow.

"Let's go somewhere else," I suggested. I bit my lower lip, having no idea what I was doing. A naughty smile appeared on his face and he just nodded while his hand was holding mine.

"There are a few rooms on the third floor. We can have some privacy there," he suggested.

"But this is a club." I said and started to giggle, not realizing what exactly was funny. We walked up to the bar area and he told me to wait as he went around the bar and went through a swinging door. He was back a few minutes later with a key card in his hand.

We took a glass elevator up to the third floor in relative silence.

"Here we are," Jiraiya said when he unlocked the room door and invited me inside.

"Why are we here?" I asked him, slowly teasing him while my hands were holding the fabric of my simple maxi dress. His eyes were intense as he looked me over from head to toe.

Jiraiya and I came from totally different worlds but, in that moment, he was looking at me like I was a goddess. Or that's what I wanted to believe. Then everything became blurry and messy. We were both drunk and my eyes were closed for a long time until he made me open them because of what he was doing. My dress was on the floor. He didn't wait for me to take off his shirt; it was on the floor after just a few seconds. The tips of his fingers were playing with my body and I was quietly moaning, not wanting to be loud. One fast movement and my bra was off; another move and I was standing naked in front of him.

"You're so beautiful..." he said as his lips touched my skin.

Slowly, he was kissing my neck, moving lower to my breasts, leaving a trail to know which spots on my body he kissed and which ones he wants to kiss again. Completely drunk I took the rest of his clothes off and pushed him to the bed, getting on the top. Jiraiya had other ideas; he rolled me over onto my back. The desire was growing fast in me and all I was able to feel were his hands on my skin and his lips on my body. Teaser...that's who he is.

On the one hand, I knew I should stop all this; that this wasn’t the right thing to do. I was his nurse and most likely he didn’t care at all about me. But as I said before, I was the woman nearest to him and maybe he just wanted to boost his ego and somehow feel better. To heal his bruised ego from the loss of his fiancée, Gracen.

On the other hand, I didn’t want this feeling to stop. Maybe because it was easier to just let go, maybe because I wanted this so badly and probably because I was almost drunk (ignore the ‘almost’ part). I needed to let go and just be in the moment. Jiraiya meant more to me than he knew…

His kisses became serious and I was answering them with even more passionate ones.

“You’re so beautiful…” He said again and, after just a few seconds, he was inside my wetness. “You’re so damn tight, like a virgin,” he grunted out.

Because I was drunk, I didn’t feel a lot of pain from him being so huge but deep inside me, I knew that the two times I had sex before didn't compare to being with a real man like Jiraiya. In my heart of hearts I wish he had been my first. In love with romance I should have waited for the right one, maybe that’s the reason why my boyfriend cheated on me. There were girls ready to sleep with him now, not paying attention to the fact he had a girlfriend and he thought that it was okay because I didn't give it up as much as he desired.

I still remember his voice when I found out what he did in the bed, in his apartment. He even had a reason to defend himself of why he cheated on me.

“I am a man,” he had said like that was an explanation; as a woman, I should understand. Well, I didn’t…

While Jiraiya was deep inside me, faint moans escaped from my lips. I bit his earlobe while my nails were digging into his back, inviting him in, offering him more.

"Karine, will you miss me when I'm gone?” Jiraiya asked, sliding almost all the way out of me, and then pushed all the way in to the hilt. I let loose a keening moan before I found the breath to respond.

“Don't talk like that. You are here with me now, and I will cherish every moment of the time we have together,” I said softly, wrapping my legs tighter around his trim waistline.

“I never want you to forget what this feels like,” he told me.

"I will never forget; how could I forget the most precious moments of my life?” I asked.

“When I'm no longer of this earth, I want you to remember that you are special to me, Karine. I've felt this way for a while now. I don't want you to ever think that you are just another warm body for me. Sweetheart, you have wormed your way into my heart,” his voice was low and full of emotion Tears welled up in my eyes as he sustained his slow long thrusts; I vibrated with an impending orgasm.

“I won’t ever forget. This is my solemn promise,” I assured him.

“I won't be a selfish bastard. When I'm gone, I want you to find happiness with someone who will cherish and love you in a way you deserve. I will forever remember your loving care of me Karine—as long as I have breath left in me,” he whispered.

“Oh Jiraiya,” my words came out shaky. His confession, made me want to cry. I prayed a silent prayer to let Jiraiya remain with me forever. I wanted—no, I needed to get to know everything about him. I needed him to know everything about me.

Jiraiya must have sensed the hot salty tears sneaking from my eyes. His thrusts slowed as he pulled away from me to gaze into my misty eyes.

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