Page 179 of Heart of Frost and Scars

“Oh, God.”

“It’s a surprise. They’re driving your shit cruiser back and forth to Sitka, and I’m worried it’ll break down and leave them stranded. It’s maddening. I’m supposed to hate them.”

“No, you’re not. They’re your family.”

“They’re fucking my wife.”

“I kept my promise. We haven’t been intimate.”

“You love them.”

“Yeah. I do.” I move my hand, lacing my fingers through his. “Sounds like you do, too.”

“I love you.” He runs his thumb over my knuckles. “Let me in.”

“You’ve always been in.” I stare at my plate. “In my thoughts, in my heart. I can’t get you out.”

“Is that what you want? Would my absence make you happy?”

I pull my hand back, needing the distance to think clearly.

“If you have secrets to share,” he murmurs, “the moment is now.”

“I don’t think you can handle hearing what I want.”

“Try me.”

“No.”

“A year ago today, you had no problem telling me precisely what was on your mind. You wanted our baby, rightfully so, and you refused to take no for an answer. Where is that woman now?”

“I want the impossible.”

“Nothing is impossible.”

“I want the four of us to be together.”

“We are together.”

“Don’t be daft, Monty.”

“Spell it out.”

“Fuck.” I gulp, going for it. “I want the four of us to be in love and naked together for the rest of our lives.”

His eyes darken, and he leans forward, his voice low and cold. “I will never fuck my brothers.”

“Leo is your nephew.”

“He’s my blood.”

“Monty.” I haul in a calming breath. “Leo and Kody don’t have sex with each other. They’re weirded out if they accidentally touch. Well, mostly Leo. Kody’s pretty open. But they keep a clear line between them. No contact during sex. No sword crossing.”

“No double penetration?”

I don’t get embarrassed easily, but as my cheeks burn with the fire of a hundred midnight suns, I realize I’m completely unprepared for this conversation.

I never imagined sharing the sexual details of my threesome with anyone, let alone with my estranged husband.

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