Page 107 of Just Between Us

Levi leans down and kisses my mouth gently as if reminding me he doesn’t want to hurt me. “I know. Let’s try again, okay?”

I’m bent over the desk, my arms shaking and Levi pushing into me until he’s fully buried inside me. I whimper helplessly, a litany of swears leaving my mouth as he snaps his hips forward, grazing my prostate until precum is leaking out of my dick and onto my thigh.

“You’re so beautiful, baby. Cole deserves to see you read his favourite book whilst you’re getting fucked, don’t you think?” Levi asks the breathiness of his voice the only sign that he’s as far gone as I am. I let out a quiet whimper, trying to make out the words that blur in front of me.

Behind me, he switches on his phone camera and begins to film me. The idea of Cole watching me like this powers me through. “…The wind sways the t-trees outside…”

“Fuck Kai, I’m going to come if you keep clenching your tight little hole around me like this,” he murmurs.

I’m hot all over, I think I might explode. The words drown in the tears forming in my eyes and I know what comes next because I’m no longer reading, letting myself get lost in the punishing rhythm of his hips.

“Please Levi,” I whisper, but he’s already stopped and I’m on my knees, staring up at him and his phone. Shame and desire wash over me, my cock sad and ignored

“I thought you promised to do better,” Levi’s voice is deceptively soft. His eyes are dark, filled with dangerous lust. “How many hits do you think you deserve for breaking your promise?”

I swallow, not knowing what to say but he makes the decision for me, and I feel that familiar sharp sting again. It’s blinding but before it can settle in, his thumb is drawing soothing circles on my skin, making it all better.

“You look a little pathetic like this, Kai,” he says. Sleek humiliation and heat blaze through me, my blood rushing to my dick. I’m so lost in him. “I don’t think you even deserve to be fucked anymore.”

I panic, shaking my head immediately. “No,” I cry. “No, please, please.”

I do sound pathetic, but I don’t care. I don’t care that he’s filming me like this either. A grin spreads on his mouth. “Okay, baby,” he whispers and places the phone on the desk. “Stand for me?” he asks.

I get on my feet, my knees wobbly and my body on fire. Just then, Levi sinks to his knees and looks up at me with a smile. My eyes snap open, realising what he wants to do.

“Lev—ah!”

He takes me in his mouth, hollowing out his cheeks and sinking fully. My head falls back, my hands braced on the desk. He sucks quickly, his head bobbing up and down. I’m desperate to watch but my eyes keep rolling back.

“Oh my God,” I cry. “Levi I’m gonna c—”

He sinks further until I’m lodged in his throat. As my orgasm rips through me, I let out a shattered cry, my hand carding through his hair. And when he spins me around again, to fuck me, I’m lost in a dreamy haze that I never want to leave.

I sit in the warm bath, my back flush against Levi’s chest. I’m floating, caught in some in-between realm of being awake and dreaming. Levi runs a soothing hand down my arm, and I focus on it, trying to tether my mind to my body. I let out a pleased hum, trying to lean further back into him, warm lavender-scented water splashing around us.

I feel a gentle kiss on my shoulder, and I close my eyes, trying my best to stay here and not drift. But I feel it creeping in, the inky black icy hands reaching for me. I recognise the feeling now, the hopelessness like maybe I might never be able to find myself in the darkness again.

Even if I know what’s happening, I know it’s a sub-drop, it still takes me by surprise. I feel the dread and the inexplicable sorrow coming over me. I know what just happened between Levi and I was pretty intense. He hit me but I enjoyed the intensity of it all, just like I enjoyed Cole cutting me.A part of me is terrified that I let him do it, that I enjoyed it despite everything that happened with Kenny.

“Hey,” Levi’s voice is gentle. “Tell me what you’re thinking.”

I struggle to come up with something. I’ve let them both hurt me and not once did I think of my safe word. They’ve embedded themselves so deeply inside me, and I’ve let them because I’ve been in love with them for a while now.

What if they don’t love me?

What if they find out what I did to Kenny and think they can’t trust me?

“Kai?”

“Just you and Cole,” I say quietly, fighting the lump in my throat.

“What about us?”

“I’m scared…” I whisper, my voice thick with tears.

Levi is quiet for a terrifyingly long moment then, “What are you scared of?”

The lump grows bigger, making it difficult to speak. I swallow, ignoring the sting in my eyes. “Letting you both in completely. I’m scared you won’t want me anymore and by then there will be nothing left of me. What if you see the ugly parts of me and…”

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