Page 30 of Dark Cravings

“Well, Thomas and I double-dommed her and then we ended up sleeping together. We’d barely finished and she jumped up like her ass was on fire and took off.”

“Oh shit.”

“Exactly. Then, she calls us to her house to talk and ends up crying and saying she doesn’t know if she can do this.”

“I know exactly how she feels, Shelby. I had all the same doubts when I started seeing Seb and Chase. I was so nervous about whether I could keep both of them happy. I was worried about what other people would think. Kenley has something else to worry about, though.”

“What?”

“She has to figure out if she can share with you. It’s always just been her and her Dom. She’s never had to share the role of a sub. My advice? Be patient. I’ve seen you together and I think she’ll come around. Just let her get to that point.”

“It’s so hard to do that.”

“I know,” she laughed. “Patience is not one of your virtues.”

“I know,” I grumbled.

“There’s one more thing I’d like to say, Shelby. You and I have been friends for a long time but so have Thomas and I. I don’t know how he’s going to handle this particular dynamic but don’t hurt him. He’s like family.”

“I have no intention of hurting him. Hell, right now I feel like I’m the one who’s going to end up getting hurt.”

“I really hope not. Don’t lose hope, just dig deep for a little patience.”

“I’ll certainly try.”

We chatted, drank our margheritas, and ate some wonderful food. When I left an hour and a half later, I felt a little more relaxed but still wondered exactly where I stood with Thomas and Kenley. I wondered if he’d had a chance to talk to her yet. I wanted a relationship with both of them but I questioned why I was the only one who was sure it could work. If they decided to move forward with a relationship, I prayed it wouldn't always be that way. I lasted about two hours before I was texting Thomas.

Shelby: Hey

Thomas: Hey, Shelby. I was just about to message you.

Shelby: Does that mean you had a chance to talk to Kenley?

Thomas: I did.

Shelby: And?????

Thomas: And it sort of went well.

Shelby: You’re gonna have to give me more than that.

Thomas: She explained what her fears were about the relationship.

Shelby: Well, that’s good! She opened up. What’s the problem?

Thomas: She called me out on my own shit and told me to reach out when I’d done it.

A horrible feeling washed over me and I instantly had a ball of nerves in my stomach. I wondered what exactly he was dealing with that he had kept from me.

Shelby: What shit?

Thomas: Damn it, Shelby. I’m trying here.

Shelby: Thomas! What’s going on?

Thomas: She asked me if I could share being a Dom long term.

Shelby: And you said…

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