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We were both silent as I thought about my past and my future. Glancing at Ravi, I knew with certainty that if I hadn’t accepted the scholarship, they would have found another way back into my life. They would have come for me, pulling me into this world in some way. For the good or for the bad, I knew that fact, reveled in the knowledge that they wouldn’t have left me alone in any version of our lives. They would always come from me; it was only a matter of time.

“It's better this way,” I told Maria honestly. “Life outside of this wasn't working out for me anyway.” My mother might’ve wanted more for me, better for me, but that was never a guarantee, not while she and my father were dead. I’d lived without them, even resented them at times, but now, I thought I was ready to let go of the past. I wasn't meant to have parents who loved me in this life, but I knew of three men who loved me enough for me to keep going.

She laughed, smiling wide before settling back down. “I will do what I can when I can. I can’t offer you more than that.” I could read between the lines, knowing what she meant. She was telling me she was on my side, so long as it wouldn’t hurt her family.

With that, she got up. Sticking my hand out to Maria, she looked down for a second before shaking it and walking back to the Ricci table. We might not be friends, but I think I just made an ally of the Ricci family head. It was a step in the right direction.

Not long after my conversation with Maria, I told Ravi I was tired and wanted to go home. He took me back to the car and got into the driver's seat. Rion and Roux were in the back seat, wearing comfy clothes, and I was already jealous.

I immediately threw off my shoes. They were gorgeous, but they were death traps, meant to slowly break women's feet over time. They laughed when I informed them of that, but there must have been some sign of real strain on my face because Rion got serious and asked me if I was okay.

Deciding to be honest with them, I spilled what Maria and I talked about. Knowing it didn't change anything for me. Being with these boys was bringing about change in me, something the memory of my dead parents couldn’t do.

They made me breathless and strong. Made me feel loved and possessed. They choked me with their protection while freeing me from my own mind. They healed parts of me that I never thought would mend and broke parts of me that didn't need to be whole. These men had made me love them, be obsessive and possessive over them. For as much as they only saw me, I was just as fixated on them.

Part of me had to admit that I didn’t think this kind of love was healthy, but it was the kind I wanted from the very depths of my soul. Something all consuming.

When we got home, Ravi parked the car, and Roux immediately got out, opened my door, and carried me princess-style into the house. “Bed or bath?”

His question had me snuggling into him, stealing all of his warmth as I answered. “Bath.” I didn't want to be stinky in bed.

Not having any energy, I let them undress me. It was oddly sensual when three sets of hands worked in unison to strip my limp body. They were an amazing team.

Keeping my eyes closed, I let them take the reins, telling me what to do and where to go. I heard water in the background, and someone picked up the dress while someone else hauled me up and took me to the tub.

Setting me down gently, I sighed into the warm water that smelled of sweet roses. My head lolled to the side, and I just sat there, unmoving.

“Beautiful lazy girl,” Ravi’s hoarse voice said from above me. I smiled, still keeping my eyes closed until I heard a dip in the water and felt his fingers on my pussy.

My eyes shot open, and I looked at him, about to tell him I was too tired, but then I saw his eyes. They were ablaze with hunger, desire, the urge to feast, but he kept himself in check.

Hypnotized by them, I let my thighs fall apart. “That's right, my love. Open for me like the naughty girl you are.” I licked my lips, getting turned on by his words, before he slipped his fingers into my core, using his thumb to rub my clit. My body moved on its own, my breasts peeking out of the water as my back bowed.

Every time the cool air hit my nipples, my body ached for more.

“Roux, show our girl how much you love her tits.” Roux, listening to Rion’s command, was beside me in a second. His hands first cupped my breasts, kneading them, before he plucked my nipples, causing my cries to catch in my throat.

“Ravi, pick up the pace on her clit.” He did just that, and I felt my body tighten. A moan slipped from my lips, and Rion smiled. “You like that, paramour? You like it when my brother fucks your pussy with his fingers, rubbing your clit until you can't take it?”

Ravi groaned, but Rion kept going. “You like being watched, adored, taken care of. You enjoy the pinch of pain Roux is giving you." He paused before he commanded, "Grab her neck and squeeze.”

Roux’s hand clasped my neck, making it harder to breath, while Ravi worked in a second finger, fucking me until I was literally breathless. “Let go,” Rion ordered. When Roux followed the command, all I could do was gasp out my words.

“I'm going to come.”

Rion grabbed my chin and lifted me up as he breathed along my lips. “Of course you are. You're ours.” He kissed me hard and fast before sticking his thumb in my open mouth and pushing my tongue down. Roux kept it up with my tits, tugging on my nipples in time with Ravi’s fingers.

With my mouth open, Rion above me looking down like a dark god, my strangled cry came out. My body shook violently, muscles clenching up to hard I thought they would break as my orgasm crashed through me. Removing his finger, he kissed me again, swallowing my moans, and as soon as everything was taken from me, my body collapsed. Euphoric bliss and languish fatigue warred over my body, making it hard to think of anything else.

Strong fingers gripped my body, Roux lifting me out, as Ravi wrapped a towel around me. Rion was already in my bed when Roux set me on top of him. Ravi and Roux laid on either side of us, their hands resting on me like they couldn’t stand not being connected to me.

“What about you guys?” I was half asleep already, but didn't want to feel like a taker.

Rion kissed my head. “We have the rest of time to fuck you for our pleasure. Tonight was about making you so tired you couldn't do anything other than sleep.”

Smiling into his chest, I knew that I loved these three men, right or wrong, more than anything.

Chapter 25

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