Page 60 of A Second Chance At Forever

Right then I knew, it was positive. He didn’t need to say anything, I just needed one look in his eyes to know.

A tear ran down my cheek and he was pressed against me in a second with his hands tangled in my hair. “I’m so fucking sorry, Lennox,” he pressed his lips to mine. “I didn’t mean for any of this to happen.” He shook his head with his forehead resting against mine.

I nodded, understanding. I held on to him, knowing I would fall over if I didn’t. I knew Mason wasn’t mine and in that second, I knew he never would be again. He belonged to her.

With both of his hands on either side of my face, he looked into my eyes. “I only want you. You have to know that.” A tear formed in his blue eyes and it broke my heart even more. I could handle being broken, but watching Mason break before me was too much.

“I know,” I managed to get out.

As soon as the words left my lips, his were against them. His soft lips moved with mine as his tongue demanded entrance. My heart pounded in my chest, knowing it wouldn’t ever get that again.

I tangled my fingers into his hair and pulled him close, I just needed a few more seconds.

With his scent engulfing me and his heat invading my body, I lost myself. I let out a whimper and before I knew what was happening, my back was against the door, my legs around his hips.

Holding me against the door, Mason pulled his shirt over his head and our eyes met. “Mason, we shouldn’t be doing this.”

He silenced me with his lips as his hands traveled up my body, landing on my breast with a firm squeeze. “Just one last time. I have to have you,” his hand traveled down between my legs and he slid a finger into my panties. “You want it too. I know you do.” His voice was deep and filled with need for me.

When his finger slid into me, I lost all train of thought and let out a moan of pleasure.

“I just need you one last time, Lennox. Please, just one last time?” he whispered against my lips while his hands traveled across my body.

I was wound so tightly, I couldn’t have denied him if I wanted. “Okay.”

I told myself I was doing it for him, he needed it to be able to put me behind him and move on, but really, I needed it just as bad.

Mason reached for the hem of my shirt and pulled it over my head, leaving me in just my panties. With his hands on my thighs, he moved us to my bed.

He pulled at my panties until they ripped and fell away. When I was completely bare for him, I heard his belt buckle clank as he worked his jeans down.

Our eyes were locked as he placed himself at my entrance. “I love you so fucking much.” The second the words left his lips he pushed inside of me. The moment he filled me, I was ready to fall over the edge.

His hands held me. My hips, my breasts, the base of my neck as he kissed me deeply all while thrusting in and out of me. I didn’t ever want to separate. He was mine and I needed him.

Knowing I wouldn’t ever have him again, made a tear fall from my eye. Mason raised his thumb to my cheek and wiped it away while continuing to move inside of me. “You don’t even know how fucking sorry I am.”

I nodded. “I know.”

He shook his head. “No, you don’t. Let me show you.” He moved his lips back to mine while filling me deeper and deeper with each thrust.

“Can you feel me? Can you feel how sorry I am for fucking this up? Can you feel how much I love you?”

I was getting closer and closer to falling apart beneath him. I dug my nails into his back and forced him to pick up the pace.

“I want to watch you come for me, one last time. Come for me, Lennox.” He moved faster and deeper until I was falling apart beneath him in an earth-shattering high. I moaned and held on to him as tightly as I could as my body was being overtaken with pleasure and pain at the same time.

When my orgasm ended, I looked into his ice-blue eyes that were locked with mine. “I don’t want this to end.” I pulled his lips to mine and kissed him like I wouldn’t ever get a chance to again. I tried to make every taste, every move, burn into my memory.

“I love you, Mason,” I whispered against his lips just as he jerked and filled me with every last drop.

He came to a stop on top of me and suddenly, it was like the weight of what we had done settled over us.

Something flashed in Mason’s eyes. Does he regret what we just did? I don’t, even though I know I should.

He pulled out of me and stood, not meeting my eyes as he adjusted his pants and pulled his shirt back on.

Finally, when I thought he was going to leave without a word, he sat down beside me on the bed. His eyes met mine and it felt like my heart stopped beating.

“I can’t tell you that I’m sorry enough. I never meant for this to happen to us. I only wanted you and now, I’m stuck and can’t get back to you. I love you, Lennox. Always remember that.” He leaned in and pressed a kiss to my lips.

This is it. This is the last kiss we will ever share.

I closed my eyes and let that kiss sink in, all the way to my heart and soul. Knowing I couldn’t ever have him again, my body broke down and sobs consumed me. I felt him pull away but didn’t open my eyes until I heard the door shut behind him.

I couldn’t watch him walk away from me.

I curled into a ball and cried myself to sleep thinking of nothing but the pain I was left to deal with.

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