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“S-sorry,” I gasp, feeling a multitude of emotions.

“Are you kidding?” he whispers before pulling me backtoward him so he can kiss me again.

It’s not long before I am straddling his lap, clutching at his cheeks all the while his hands slip down to my waist, where he grabs hold tightly. Our kiss deepens, and instead of wanting to run, I realize I never want this to end.

Our chests come together, and for the first time in years, I have an aching throb of desire pulsing between my legs; I want this man, my best friend, to take me, all of me. Without much effort, Theo picks me up with my legs wrapped around his waist, and lies me back down over the sofa, his body coming to rest between my legs.

“I’ve gotta stop, Iz,” he pants between kisses. “I want you so bad, I need to stop.”

“I don’t want you to stop,” I whisper, to which he pauses, looking at me as though trying to see any hint of a doubt. I press my hands into the muscles of his back, offering him the confirmation he needs from me. “Please don’t stop, I want this; I want you.”

“Are you sure? I don’t know what you’re dealing with, but I know you’re hurting,” he says, kissing me briefly before my response.

“Then help me to heal!”

His face is still a mixture of indecision, desire, and concern as I smile and begin brushing back his hair away from his forehead, which is already beginning to perspire. After a few moments, he leans in to begin kissing the soft and sensitive skin along my neck, the pressure increasing with every touch of his lips. I moan with want, needing him to show me a love I’ve never experienced before. He brings his hand up and under my shirtwhere he starts to massage my breast, fast finding my nipple and pinching it. Just as a wetness begins to coat my panties, he pulls back and stares at me while pulling off his t-shirt to reveal his perfect body. I sit and marvel at it, pushing away negative thoughts about my own body, allowing myself to fully indulge in this moment that I’ve dreamt of so many times over the years away from him.

He smiles before helping me to push away my own shirt, then unclasps my bra to reveal my naked breasts that feel full, sensitive, and more sexual than any of me has ever felt before. And when his mouth begins to move against my nipple, sucking hard as his hand travels south, I cannot help but whimper an involuntary sound. His hands, soft and large, push away at my waistband, allowing the cool air to hit me with a welcome relief to the heat in my body.

When I am finally naked and resting beneath his body, he takes a moment to look me up and down, biting his bottom lip with hunger. I do not feel exposed, vulnerable, or anything like the ‘whore’ I’ve always been accused of being. Physically, I am not a virgin, but in my mind, this is my first time.Theois my first time.

His hands trickle down from my collarbone to my thighs where he grabs hold of each one and pulls them apart, allowing him full access to my core below. It feels hot, wet and seems to pulse with nervous anticipation. Theo kisses my abdomen before scooting right down to kiss the inside of my thighs, driving me wild with the need for him to touch me.

“Shh, I’ll take care of you, Iz, you know I will always take care of you,” he says between kisses.

Mere moments later, he swipes his tongue through me, then circles the tip around my clitoris. I begin squirming, almost unableto withstand the pleasure surging through me, so he pins my hips rigidly against the mattress, moving his tongue more deeply, more quickly, more like he kisses my mouth. And I feel it, I feel his love for me, and I want it all.

“Oh, God…Theo!” I cry out as an overwhelming sensation stirs up inside of me. My experience of sex has never been pleasant, so this has never happened before. But when my orgasm hits me, it is sudden and surprising, and brings me to the brink of tears. This is the first time I can see why people like sex so much.

As I come back down from my high, he shuffles up my body, offering fluttery kisses along the way. When he reaches my lips, we kiss gently, affectionately, like we did when we were teenagers falling in love. As our kiss intensifies, the sound of a packet tearing reaches my ears and I immediately tense up. He seems to notice, so he passes it to me, as if asking for final permission for what we’re about to do. I show no hesitation in sliding it on, hoping I’ve done it right. When I bring my hands back up to grab his shoulders, he moves inside of me slowly but the alien feeling still has me crying out. It’s not painful, like it has been before, but it’s not entirely pleasant either.

“You’re in charge, Iz,” Theo whispers.

As he pushes gently inside of me, I begin to relax so he can take me more easily and move in a way that feels good. Eventually, when my body learns to accept him, I wrap my arms around his back and tilt my pelvis so he can sink in even further and develop a more punishing, but exquisite rhythm.

“Izzy, you’re everything to me,” he says softly, “you feel so good.”

My mind turns to fog as an overwhelming sensation to explode comes over me again and I gasp over the intensity of it.He then groans as he lets himself release inside of me.

“Ok?” he asks before moving up to kiss my forehead. Still unable to articulate myself beyond gesture, I simply nod and pull his arm around me. “You’re quiet,” he observes.

“This is all a bit…new,” I answer truthfully, “a bit weird.”

“Good, weird?”

“Actually, yes” I reply, finally feeling completely at ease about all of this.

“Shall we go up to bed?”

“In a minute,” I yawn as he moves to spoon me from behind, where he begins to run his fingers up and down my arm. It’s hypnotic and I soon succumb to sleep;,a peaceful sleep.

Chapter 20

Izzy

I don’t remember leaving that sofa but when I wake the next day, I’m in Theo’s bed. He’s already suited and booted for work, but I enjoy watching him put on his tie in front of the mirror. He sees I’ve raised myself up onto the pillows and smiles through the reflective glass.

“Morning,” he says and kisses me on the cheek. “I didn’t want to wake you but I’ve gotta go do some damage control with one of our clients. You ok?”

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