Page 84 of Slow Burn (The Boston Beauties)

I sat in an examination room alone for what seemed like an eternity until my middle-aged doctor with practical footwear and a white coat sat at the desk next to me, pulling up my chart on the table.

She looked up and smiled at me, ‘So Sarah, unfortunately, I am not going to be able to give you birth control pills today…’

‘Why, do I need to complete the antibiotics first?’

‘Antibiotics?’ she questioned looking at me with a puzzled expression.

‘Isn’t that how you treat STI’s?’ I asked. ‘I’ve been reading on Google.’

She put up a hand to stop me. ‘Sarah, you don’t have any STI’s, you are perfectly healthy.’

I looked up to her feeling instantly relieved at the news that I was still clean, which meant Drew was likely still clean too.

As the relief washed over me, so did the guilt that I could have thought the very worst from a man who was clearly so in love with me.

‘So if you can’t give me the pill, do you think I should use another method instead?’ I asked her. Before coming back to England, I had looked into other forms such as the shot, the patch and the implant. I was comfortable with the pill, it’s what I had been on before and it seemed to be the best fit for me.

‘Not quite,’ she paused. ‘While all the STI results came back negative, your pregnancy test came back positive.’

Pregnancy test?

‘No, there must be some mistake, I didn’t do a pregnancy test.’

She pursed her lips. ‘We always do a pregnancy test to rule out pregnancy before issuing any form of birth control.’

I sat there stunned, shocked beyond all rational explanation.

I didn’t even know I was being tested for pregnancy, hell, I didn't even think it was a possibility.

My pregnancy test came back positive?

‘But that would mean…’

She nodded, looking at me, studying my face. ‘Yes, Sarah, that would mean you are pregnant.’

‘I...no…’

‘Seeing as you’ve come for contraceptives, I take it this wasn’t planned, and that’s perfectly normal, half of pregnancies are not planned,’ she started to speak but I couldn't concentrate on what she was saying, aside from the fact that she just told me I was pregnant.

Drew and I had used protection. We hated it but used them all the same to prevent this very thing. Unless it happened our first times, sometime that morning. But he pulled out, each time.

‘Sarah?’ I looked up to see the doctor, waving her hand in front of me trying to get my attention as she called the name of my alias.

‘Yeah?’

‘As I was saying, you have lots of options, but first, I will go ahead and order blood work and book an ultrasound to confirm gestational age.’

Well, if I didn’t want to talk to Drew before my appointment, I sure as hell couldn't now. This wasn’t news that one delivered over the phone with such a great distance of separation. I had been distant with him, and I knew it wasn’t fair. But I had so much to work out in my head. First of all, I was pregnant, I had a baby inside me. Even if it was only the size of a pea, it still meant that in seven and a half months I was going to be a mother. Drew was going to be a father. Something I had no idea how he felt about. We had never had that discussion, at least not in great detail. We had both said we liked kids, and they weren’t off the table for the future.

After ghosting him for a few days, I heard it in his voice, he was worried, and Breton even asked me one day what was going on as Drew had called him to make sure I was ok and if everything was fine.

I hadn’t told Breton about the baby. Aside from my doctor and the ultrasound technicians, I was the only person who knew about the baby until now. I couldn’t tell anyone without Drew knowing first.

When I had come to terms with the fact that I was going to have a baby, I decided to wait and tell Drew in person when he was going to be here in a few weeks, which meant, it was doubly important that he agree to come here and that I not drive him away by acting like a bitch.

CHAPTER 28

JESSA

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