I frowned. “Name it, Shatter.”
She swallowed, that odd look lingering in her eyes as she regarded me.
“Today,” I added. “I’m going to show you everything, so you know I’m telling the truth?—”
“I believe you. You… and your pack. You are everything I wanted. I just didn’t see it.”
“We’re not leaving you.” That was a promise I wouldn’t break.
“Would…” Her breath caught. “Would you bond me?”
A chill slithered through my spine, setting my hairs on end, and my heart turned to stone. I leaned back, taking her in.
There was only one bond I could offer her.
What?
“Shatter—”
“You… you said anything. I thought… you wanted?—”
“I want you in our pack,” I breathed.God, I wanted that more than anything in the world. “But we’ll find another way.”
Not a dark bond.
Her expression fractured.
“There’s…” Her voice trembled. “There’s no princess bond. There’s nothing else but that, and I d-don’t want… I don’t want to be afraid anymore.”
“Because we can find another way—I told you Shatter. I don’t care who says it’s impossible?—”
“And if I get bitten while we wait?”
“I won’t let that happen,” I growled, chest tight.
Never.
But tonight…
That had shaken me, when Umbra had opened the door to Roxy and I realised she was gone…
I finally spoke out loud the thing that lurked at the corners of my mind every moment I was with her. “What if we were supposed to be your mates? What if…?” Could I tell her I had no intention of letting the Lincoln pack survive?
“Dusk…” Her eyes clouded and she shook her head. “If th-this is what mates mean. I don’t want them.”
I stared at her, believing that truly. And it didn’t matter. “I can’t.”
A dark bond?
“P-Please, you said…” Her breathing was short and sharp. “You told me you would bite me if I begged?—”
“Not like this.”
“You d-don’t want me?”
“I can’t—” I began, but she cut me off.
“I lost everything. You and Umbra and Ransom, I want… I want your pack to be my choice before that’s taken from me, too.”