Page 32 of Agony

I couldn’t believe that, despite my feelings for him, I almost gave a porn actor my virginity. It wasn’t right. He had more than enough pussy to fuck on a daily basis.

He took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

“Is it because, you know?” he asked quietly.

I sniffled and nodded.

“I’m sorry that I never told you. I just ... I’m not ashamed of what I do, Neve. I want you to know that. But I also want you to know that I didn’t tell you because of your reaction to the industry when I first asked you what you did at Devil’s Den. God, I felt like I got struck by a lightning bolt when I saw you sleeping in New York and I never felt that before. I knew you were special and I... kind of fell for you right then and there. I didn’t want you to think any less of me because of what I do; that’s why I didn’t tell you. A lot of it is fake anyway,” he said.

“Which part? The part where you fuck three girls or the part where you cum all over them?” I asked bitterly through fresh tears.

“Yeah, I guess that’s all youwouldsee. But because of what you said, I know you didn’t even watch it,” he replied unhappily as he got off of the bed.

“Why would I want to watch it?” I asked incredulously, sitting up. I reached down for the blanket and pulled it up over my naked body.

Arsen put his hands on his hips and looked at me before he answered.

“Do you still have it? The movie?” he asked.

“Unfortunately. Adesynne made me keep it since she paid eighty bucks for it.”

“Get dressed and meet me outside please,” he said as he walked out of the bedroom.

I rolled my eyes and went out to his car where he was waiting for me. We drove in silence all the way back to my place and when we got there, I went straight to my dresser that the television was sitting on. I grabbed a fresh pair of panties and threw a tank top on. I moved the rest of my underwear to the side and grabbed the movie.

Addie told me to hold on to it and “use” it one day along with the vibrator she gave me with it. She thought it was funny until she saw the crushed look on my face when I saw Arsen on the cover with a beautiful brunette.

I cringed at the name of the movie.Snow White and the Cuntsman.It was so damn cheesy but Addie told me that porn companies usually took big name movies and remade them.

I closed the dresser drawer and went into the living room where he was sitting on the couch, waiting in his boxer briefs.

“Put the movie in, Neve,” he said seriously.

I tossed it on the couch, “Youput the movie in.”

He shook his head and grabbed it. I stood next to the couch with my arms crossed over my chest while he unwrapped it and turned the TV and the game system I used. He put it in and scrolled over until the disc icon was ready and he pressed the button to activate it.

“Come sit next to me please,” he said quietly.

“I’d rather not. I don’t want to watch this Arsen. I don’t even care anymore,” I replied stubbornly.

“Yes you do. I can tell you care, because you’re hurt. If it didn’t hurt, you wouldn’t care,” he replied softly. “Please, Neve.”

I let out a long suffering sigh and sat down as far away from him as I could while the title screen came on. He pressed the button on the controller again then set it on the coffee table.

For the next two hours, I sat there watchingSnow White and The Cuntsman.Arsen pointed out which parts were “fake” and which parts were “real.” Since he was the male lead, I missed most of it. I refused to watch him having sex with anyone and I could tell he was becoming frustrated.

When the movie was over he looked at me.

“Do you understand now Neve? Yes, I have sex with women for a living, but it’s really only ten minutes of actual work and the rest is looped. I need you to understand,” he pleaded.

“And I need you to leave,” I replied coldly. “I can’t believe I almost gave you my virginity. I can’t believe that I fell...” my voice trailed off as I caught myself.

“You fell what?” he prompted.

“It doesn’t matter,” I said quietly shaking my head.

“It matters tome,” he said.

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