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He actually wants to spend time with me, without having sex. I’m not used to that. Guys never want to spend time with me unless it leads to sex.

“You want to go somewhere?” Easton asks. “We could get something to eat.”

“I’m not hungry. I’ve been binging on all the stuff you brought over last night. We could watch a movie.” I smile. “I have a brand new TV.”

“Let’s go check it out.”

We go in my room and I shut the door. Easton grabs the TV remote.

“Can we talk first?” I ask.

“Sure.” He sets the remote down and joins me on the bed.

“I’ve been thinking about what you said, about us being more than friends.”

“Yeah?” He’s staring at me like he’s trying to figure out what I’m about to say. He really wants this, and so do I, but I’m still afraid of what might happen.

“I want to try it.”

“Try what?”

“Dating you.”

He slowly smiles. “Is this a joke?”

“No. And you need to accept this before I change my mind because I keep going back and forth on this.”

He wraps his hands around my face and presses his lips to mine. My heart was already beating fast, but it speeds up even more and my body’s getting all warm and tingly. How does he make me feel so much from a kiss?

He pulls back to look at me. “How about now? You feeling more sure about this?”

“Yeah.” I smile. “I’m sure.”

He kisses me again, but it’s hotter, deeper, more intense. I can feel how much he wants me and it turns me on. I want him too. It’s all I’ve been able to think about.

We start tearing at each other’s clothes, trying to get them off as fast as possible. It’s probably only seconds but seems to take forever. When they’re finally off, Easton lays me back on the bed and kisses me, a slow, sexy kiss that gets me so worked up I can barely stand it. I don’t know how much longer I can wait. I’m used to things moving fast. If I was with Mateo, we’d be almost done by now. But Easton’s just getting started.

He kisses his way down my body while his hands move over my skin. His touch sparks so many sensations, my body coming alive in a way I’ve never felt before. When his hand settles between my legs, his fingers rubbing over me with the perfect amount of pressure, I grip the sheets and moan from how good it feels.

“So fucking wet,” Easton says as he slides two fingers inside me.

His words get me even more turned on. If he keeps this up, I’ll come before I get what I really want.

“Wait,” I say as he’s about to put his mouth on me. “I want you instead.”

“You don’t want this first?”

“Not tonight. I’m kind of in a hurry.”

“Why?”

“Because this guy’s been holding out on me and I can’t take it any longer.”

His eyes go to mine. “It’s because the guy loves you and needs you to believe it.”

His words stir up a mix of emotions in me—happiness, fear, confusion. I can’t deal with all that right now, so I bury those emotions and focus on all the sensations flooding my body as I impatiently wait for what’s next.

“Be right back,” he says, smiling as he goes to get a condom from his wallet. As he puts it on I check out his body, the muscles that run down his core, his wide shoulders, his muscular legs. He lays over me and I realize this is the first time I’ve done this without clothes. The guys I’ve been with are always in such a hurry they just shove down my pants and do it. It feels different to do this when we’re both naked. It’s more intimate.

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