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I’m so angry I could scream. Angry at myself for not seeing this coming when I knew deep down that this is the real Caleb. I knew he wasn’t a good person; he was just pretending to be decent to get into my pants. A mask he has worn well and I fell for it hook line and sinker.

My lower lip begins to tremble. “You bastard.”

He doesn’t say a word but when his eyes meet mine again I see it. The Caleb I had built up in my mind for the past few months is not the same person looking back at me now.

“How could you do that to me? You’ve been lying to me this whole time?”

He shakes his head, “Not the whole time.”

“Liar!”

I’m two seconds away from rushing over to Colton and beating him over the head with my fist when a loud laugh bellows from him. The sick bastard is loving every second of this. Lexy’s words come into my mind.

“The three of them rule this school and everyone in it. They’re scheming, devious, and dangerous.”

Caleb’s eyes dart over my shoulder to Colton shouting at him to get the fuck out before he makes him. I don’t need to hear his excuses. Taking advantage of his distraction I storm out of the room running down the hall and don’t stop until I’m outside. I need air, I need to breathe. I can’t fucking breathe.

Heavy rain soaks my clothes and the coldness of the rain bites at my skin as the heavens open above me. My trembling body welcomes it. Welcomes the coldness and darkness of the skies as my body begins to shut down putting me into a zombie like state.

Everyone in my whole life has lied to me, betrayed me, and kept me in the dark.

I hear heavy boots pound the pavement behind me.

“It wasn’t like that Jordin. Just stop….please just listen to me for a second.”

Oh now he wants to talk and after Colton has spilled his dirty little secrets. No. There’s no coming back from this.

I don’t respond.

Folding my arms across my chest I practically run towards the parking lot allowing fresh tears to mix with the rain soaking my face.

I don’t know where it is I’m going nor do I care.

He reaches out making a grab for me but I catch the movement from the corner of my eye dodging him in time. I don’t want him to touch me ever again.

“Don’t fucking touch me,” I warn.

“Just stop then and hear me out.”

I pick up my pace needing to get as far away from him as I can. I’ve heard all I need to hear from Colton.

“Jordin. I didn’t have a choice,” he shouts in frustration spinning me around to face him but it’s not him I see its Logan standing behind him along with Lucas waiting by their car allowing this to play out to see what I will do next.

“My name is Jordina Maloti and you will keep your filthy Garo loving hands off me. You will never speak to me again, never look at me again, never get to touch me ever again. Do you understand Caleb? Never!!” I grit out through chattering teeth.

I storm past him walking straight into Logan’s waiting arms get into the car refusing to look back at him, even when I hear Caleb yell, “FUUUCCCKKK,” as we take off.

Chapter Fifty-five

Jordin

Twoweeks.

It’s been two weeks since I found out the truth about Caleb and three days since the tears dried up. I’ve cried so much I don’t think I will cry again. What’s a lifetime without tears? Guess I will just have to find out.

I told my grandfather that I didn’t want to go back to school that I wanted to be home schooled instead. He refused my request. I’ve no interest in anything except to stay here in my room to shut the world out and sleep. I noticed my clothes are beginning to get looser as I haven’t eaten much. Everything I tried tastes like ashes in my mouth. I haven’t even had the energy to open my curtains and only get out of bed when I need to use the bathroom. What’s the point? I’ve lost everything and everyone I’ve ever cared about. Nothing matters anymore. Nothing. Dark thoughts begin to take over as the desire to end it all gets stronger and stronger with each passing day. I want the pain that’s consuming me from the inside out to stop. The only thing that’s holding me back is that I will never get to see Millie’s beautiful face again. Never get to hold her in my arms. Never get to tell her just how much I love her.

Our song sings out in my head reminding me that I need to stay strong for her.

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