Page 21 of Future Like This

I can make a living will

I can write letters to Emmie

I can prepare the people in my life

I’ll know

Cons:

I’ll overthink it

I’ll worry

I’ll wonder if the test was right

I’ll know

I stare down at the notebook in front of me, tapping my pen against the paper. I’ve spent far too much time thinking about this. Then rethinking it. Should I get genetic testing done to find out if the Alzheimer’s is genetic?

I still don’t know. I growl and chuck the pen, sending it flying across the room and onto the floor. Miles walks into the bedroom with his eyebrows raised.

“Everything okay?”

I bite my lip. This is hard for me to talk about. It scares me to think his future could involve taking care of me when I barely remember him. It makes me want to throw up.

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