I glanced at Lisa, who nodded. She wanted me to speak to him about my pregnancy tests and tell him I was carrying his child. I wasn’t sure if I was ready for this. I had only just found out that my whole world would be turned upside down. But if not now, then when?”

“All right,” I said. “I’ll send you the address.”

When we ended the call, I looked at Lisa.

“I can’t do this,” I said.

Lisa hugged me. “It’s going to be fine. No matter what happens, you’re not in this alone. Whether or not you have Rodney by your side, you’ll always have me.”

I nodded. Lisa was an amazing friend. Loud, outspoken, and sometimes too lazy for her own good, but loyal to a fault, and that was what I needed right now.

“Thank you for going through this with me,” I said.

Lisa smiled. “Of course. That’s what friends are for. Besides, if you do decide to keep it, I’m totally cool with being the crazy aunt.”

I groaned. “God, I can’t even think about that right now. Let’s just get through this one step at a time.”

Fifteen minutes later, Rodney rang the intercom, and Lisa buzzed him in. My stomach was in knots when she opened the door for him.

Lisa looked Rodney up and down when he stepped into the apartment, and I knew she was judging him. I would only know what her final verdict was after he left.

“How are you feeling?” Rodney asked after introducing himself to Lisa. He walked to me, and we sat down on Lisa’s couch together.

“Fine,” I said. “Up and down.” That was the understatement of the year.

Rodney nodded and looked at his hands like he was trying to find the right words.

“Can I ask you something?” he asked.

I shrugged.

“Why didn’t you want me to walk you out to your car earlier today?”

I frowned. Rodney didn’t seem to understand what was going on.

“I’m not about to let you be all gallant when you’re blowing hot and cold about where we stand,” I said

Rodney shook his head. “Being friends isn’t a bad thing.”

I sighed. “We both know we’re not going to be able to be friends again, Rodney. Not after everything that’s happened. I’m afraid now it’s all or nothing.”

Rodney was silent for a moment, nodding to acknowledge my words but with nothing to say in return. I was glad he didn’t counter me or try to debate it. I wasn’t in the mood for an argument.

“When Monica brought your water today and asked if it was morning sickness,” Rodney started, and I knew where he was going with it. “Are you pregnant?”

I sighed and felt precariously close to crying. I stood up and walked to the bedroom where I scooped the fourth pregnancy test from the bed and carried it back to the living room. I held it out to Rodney who took it and blinked down at it as if he wasn’t sure what he was holding.

Lisa stood quietly in the corner, watching our interaction. I glanced at her, and she shrugged almost imperceptibly. She had no idea where this was going to go, either.

Rodney closed his eyes for a moment before putting the test down on the coffee table and standing up.

“Excuse me,” he said and walked to the front door. He closed it behind him, and Lisa and I were left alone.

“What the hell was that?” Lisa asked.

“I think he’s going outside to freak out. You know, because he doesn’t want to lose his shit where we can see. Because I’m pretty sure that’s what’s happening.”

Lisa nodded. I pulled my knees up to my chest on the couch and hugged my legs. I had no idea what was going to happen, or how Rodney would react when he came back inside. If he came back inside. A small part of me was terrified that he would leave altogether, and I would really be in this alone. Lisa had said she had my back, but it was different if Rodney ditched me. What would I do then?