Page 79 of Baby, One More Time

Musa: Only kissed *skeptical emoji*?

Alina: Oh my gosh, did he hit on you?

Nea: He initiated the kiss, and it was great, too great. I wanted to do more, but he said we could only kiss

ReyLon: Did he say why?

Nea: Because before we go any further, he said he wanted me to be all in, that he never stopped loving me, and doesn’t want to just have sex

AnnLovesBooks: Aww. If you pass on that proposition, can I get his number?

Musa: Go all in. What’s the holdup?

ReyLon: Do you still love him?

Nea: IDK how I feel. And I’m too afraid to go back all in. What if he breaks my heart again?

I love how in this anonymous community I can be myself. Admit even my darkest flaws and fears.

ReyLon: Then perhaps he was right to ask you to wait

Alina: Give it some time, see if he sticks around

I hate when John is right and I’m wrong.

Nea: Thank you, everyone. I’ll think about everything you said. Now I have to go to sleep. It’s really late here. Talk soon

That night my dreams are haunted by ocean-blue eyes, pillow lips, and sexy scruff. The next morning I wake up deeply unrested and sexually frustrated.

My phone chimes on the nightstand.

It’d better not be another kitty picture or I’m going to murder someone.

It’s a text from Teresa.

From Teresa:

Dear little sister, how nice it is to never EVER hear from you when you don’t need something from me

To Teresa:

Sorry, I’ve been swamped at work. But I love you from the bottom of my heart *hands making a heart emoji*

From Teresa:

And you don’t have anything to tell me?

I involuntarily blush, immediately thinking of the kiss with a flare of guilt. Then I consider for a second. Teresa lives in Silicon Valley. There’s no way she could know about the kiss. She or anyone else on the planet—okay except for The Ex Files gals.

To Teresa:

No, nothing to report. Why?

From Teresa:

*pondering emoji* Mmm, just wondering ARE YOU PREGNANT?!

To Teresa:

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