Amy opened her eyes and looked over at Emilia. ‘I’m sorry,’ she said.
‘It’s okay,’ said Emilia, but her heart was already aching and the little crack that had begun to heal burst open again. She had gotten her hopes up, and now Amy was bringing her crashing back down again.
‘No it’s not, okay,’ said Amy. ‘Because I kissed you and it was a really, really good kiss and I can’t stop thinking about it.’
Emilia frowned and then laughed.
Amy closed her eyes again.
‘And I keep touching you, and you keep touching me, and it's driving me completely wild. I can't stop thinking about you and when I'm with you, my mind is just racing and thinking about how I can touch you, or hoping you might touch me, so I can feel that feeling aga-.’
Emilia leant across suddenly and cupped Amy’s cheek in the palm of her hand and kissed her on the lips.
She took it slow, kissing her soft and deep, tracing her thumb across the top of Amy’s ear as their lips pecked sweetly at each other. It was delicate and soft, and Amy’s lips tasted sweet and wet.
Emilia began to pull away but Amy pulled her back with both hands, kissing her lips again and again.
Emilia put her knee down on the wood beside Amy’s thigh, and then ran her hand down the girls shoulder, playing with the edge of the towel wrapped tightly around her, just above her breasts.
They stopped kissing for a moment, just holding each other, looking into each other eyes and breathing.
‘If we were to do this,’ said Amy, biting her lip. ‘How would it work?’
‘What do you mean?’
‘If we were to all… you know,’ Amy squeezed Emilia’s hips. ‘How would it work?’
Emilia’s stomach flipped, she felt a powerful wave of anxiety run through her like a jolt of electricity. She wasn't even sure she’d heard Amy correctly, as though the steam might have blocked her ears.
‘I don't know,’ she said, her eyes wide.
‘You must have thought about it.’
‘A little bit,’ said Emilia, her heart pounding in her chest.
Amy raised her eyebrows.
‘Ok, yes. A lot. But what do you want me to do, draw you a diagram?’
‘No, but also yes I would, and we’ll come back to that later. Would we make love? Would Cassian and I? You and Mark? What do you want?’
‘What do we want?’ asked Emilia, barely able to contain herself.
The girls sat in silence, bristling with nervous energy and tension, until Amy spoke.
‘For it to be nice,’ she said.
Emilia smiled. She desperately wanted to kiss Amy again, but she didn't want to scare her away. Instead she said, ‘So do I,’ very quietly.
‘I need to talk to Mark,’ said Amy. ‘I mean we’ve talked about it already but I can't just spring this on him. We need to talk about it properly.’
‘Take as long as you need,’ said Emilia. ‘I don't want to rush this.’
But her heart was already racing.
*
After leaving the steam room, Amy and Emilia had showered and dressed and returned to the main bar area, where they found the men drinking coffee and chatting animatedly.