Page 58 of Eves (Carson Brothers)

Scoffing, Lilly shrugged it off. "I'm used to them never being here."

True, but that didn't mean anything. I knew Lilly wished she wasn't alone so much.

"Go get a shower, you're gonna be late."

I felt as if there was always something Lilly wasn't telling me and I couldn't help but think it all came back to a certain Carson brother. I stared at her a little longer then left like she wanted me to. We needed to have a serious chat but I wasn't sure if she was ever gonna let me. It hurt knowing she wouldn't talk to me. I guessed I deserved it for keeping so much from her about me and Kit. I only did that because I felt like I had no choice, though.

I ranmy hands over my stomach as water trickled over my little bump. I smiled and closed my eyes, praying everything would go okay tonight. Delta was supposed to be my safety, my protectors. Saying that, because they had so much involvement in the pain and terror that had happened in my life, I couldn't feel safe and calm knowingly heading into the quarters the masked men resided. The place my Dad had created. I wished he could be here to talk about this with because he would know what to say. He always knew what to say.

After my shower, I ruffled my hair within my towel and walked up to my dress hanging on Lilly's wardrobe.

"Let's start with your hair," she said as I ran my fingers down the fabric.

I still couldn't believe she and Kit had devised a plan to get this dress without me even knowing. I walked over to Lilly's dressing table and sat on the chair, still wrapped in a towel. Then I watched Lilly as she undid the wrap around my hair.

"You trust me, don't you?" I asked, randomly and she frowned at me in the mirror.

"Why would you ask that? You know I do."

I nodded and allowed her to start on my hair.

"So why won't you tell me what's bothering you?" I asked, staring at her face in the mirror.

"Nothing is bothering me!" she said a little more flustered.

"I know you. I know something is bothering you."

When she didn't answer my frown deepened.

"Is it Nick?" I asked her straight out.

"What, no!" she answered way too quickly.

"Because I know you bother him too," I answered, glancing down at my nails.

"What does that mean?"

"It means, I know you both have unfinished business and if you both don't sort your shit out I'm gonna act all mamma bear and sort it for you."

"I'd rather you didn't," she began teasing my hair. "There is and never will be anything going on with me and Nick, okay? Please just drop it."

I nodded after a short while, because I could see the resentment filling her expression. For whatever reason, she hated Nick. And I meantreallyhated Nick. Nothing like the hatred I felt towards Kit when we had first met. I smiled thinking of the memories of our first few days together. I really didn't like him. He still wound me up like something chronic sometimes even now, but that hatred had been replaced with pure fear that at any minute I could lose him. Anger built in my chest, thinking about the evil in the world that just wouldn't leave us alone.

"Eves?" Lilly turned me around to face her as a tear ran down my face. "What is it, babe?"

I shook my head, knowing I was being silly but she wasn't going to settle for that.

"Everything in my life is just so fucked up, I just wish everything was different," I said turning to face the dresser again.

She nodded, knowing exactly what I'd meant, and she then pulled me into a hug from behind.

"Everything is gonna be okay, Eves. You've gotta believe that it will all work out. Our baby will be safe, no matter what."

I scoffed and looked at her in the mirror. "Ourbaby?"

"Yes.Ourbaby, I love them already as if they were my own and I will die before I let anything bad happen to them."

"You're making me cry," I said smiling and wiping my face.

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