Page 54 of Eves (Carson Brothers)

“Sorry.”

“What were you thinking about?”

Honestly, If I’d have to categorize my current set of thoughts I’d never get to see Lilly and eat the food that I so desperately needed. So, I decided to deny thinking of anything insignificant just so that we could move on.

“I wish I could drive you there myself,” he said, his jaw set hard.

I nodded, knowing he was driving Maddie everywhere in his car while I couldn’t be seen anywhere with him. The ball was going to be the first time since their mission had started that we'd be seen together without having to worry about it.

“How are things going with Maddie? Have you found anymore out about why they wanted you and not her/me?”

Kit looked down then, his whole body language changing and I knew it was because he didn't want to talk about this.

“Things are slow. We’re keeping it on the low recently until we find out more info.”

“And how do you plan to do that?”

“We have spies everywhere, Eves. Sooner or later we’ll get the intel’ we need. Until then, we observe and stick to the plan.”

“Does the plan include you not getting killed?”

Kit sighed, “Come on, Eves. We've spoken about this. You don’t need to worry about that.”

Funny, because that’s all I could worry about…

Him and our baby - all I could do was worry that something was going to happen to either of them and that it would all be my fault.

“This is my job, Eves. It’s what I do. You gotta let me do that and not worry, okay?”

“How can I do that when I constantly feel like there’s something you’re not telling me? I feel like I’m forever losing you.”

I hadn’t planned for our conversation to turn like this, but I couldn’t just ignore my feelings.

“Woah, Eves. Calm down.”

“I know you’re trying to protect me, not only physically but mentally too because you think I can’t handle it and that the baby will then have to deal with it. But this is killing me. Feeling like everything that’s going on in my life is kept a secret from me.”

Kit nodded, understanding what I’d meant.

“Everything you need to know I’ll tell you, Eves. I promise. That is all that matters,” he said, holding my stomach.

“I need you to protectthisand let me protect you, okay? Stop worrying about everything else.”

“I can’t just stop worrying about you,” I answered honestly. “I feel as if I’m gonna lose you. It’s all I can think about. My nightmares, every single one I’m fighting to keep you.”

I hated how every single time my hormones would take over and I just couldn’t stop myself from crying.

“Eves,” he sighed and then pulled me towards him, “come here.”

“You gotta listen to me okay?” he moved me back and held my head between his hands.

“I’m not going anywhere, do you hear me?”

Nodding, I closed my eyes as Kit wiped away my tears with his thumbs.

“This ball is what we need.”

“We need a ball?” I asked, confused.

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