Wow...

But then, the professor is breaking the kiss.

He shakes his head and sighs.

“I can’t do this,” he says. It’s the first time I’ve ever heard his voice hesitant. His usual swagger and confidence have evaporated. “I really shouldn’t have done that. I thought I wouldn’t... but the way you look... the way you look at me...”

Is he really...flustered?

“Why can’t you do this?” I ask him.

Professor Penmayne tightens his lips. “You wouldn’t understand.”

I reach out and take his perfectly-sculptured chin between my fingers. “Is it your past?” I ask. “Is it something you’ve done? I don’t care about your family or anything like that.”

“It’s not like that,” he replies softly. “I just can’t explain.”

“Your past?”

“Yes.”

“Is that why you weren’t there the other week in class?” I ask. “Something to do with what has happened before? Whatever it is, I can understand. I cantryto understand.”

“There’s more to my life than what I choose to reveal,” he says. It seems as though he's on the brink of uttering something more - of divulging everything - but then he abruptly halts.

“Just tell me,” I whisper.

“I can’t.”

Now it’s my turn to shake my head. “You’re very guarded,” I remark. “Mysterious. You’re really not like other boys.”

“That isn’t a good thing,” he replies coldly. “I am your professor. You shouldn’t be here.”

“I don’t care that you’re my professor,” I say confidently.

He scoffs. “There is a hell of a lot of layers to you, Olivia.”

I lean forward so that my lips are at his ear. “You can have me, professor.”

“I can’t.”

“That’s it, then?”

He sighs. “I’m sorry to have put you through this.”

I simply can’t deal with this uncertainty. It’s driving me crazy.

I need to do something about the tension between us.

I grit my teeth. “Well, if you don’t want me here anymore, then I won’t be. Goodbye, professor.”

He merely stares at me with that impenetrable stare of his.

I stand up and leave. I don’t look back. I don’t know what I was doing coming here. What else did I expect to happen?

Why did I offer myself so willingly to him?

And why did Ilikeit so damn much?