Ava’s still not home; she must be out with Luke or some other friends. This gives me the space to have a long, luxurious shower with no one bothering me.
Without being disturbed if I’m up to something naughty.
Okay, so maybe it is a good time to get excited about my professor...
Still hot and sweating profusely from the run, I take a seat on the toilet for a moment to catch my breath. Being all messy like this is kinda sexy. Reminds me of how Spencer leaves me after he’s fucked me hard. Like I’ve beenused.
I take in a deep breath, and my professor’s scent from his hoodie envelopes my nostrils. I can’t help myself. My hand slowly makes its way past the rim of my running leggings and into my panties.
And I close my eyes.
And I think of Professor Penmayne saying my name as he fucks me.
His face, full of concentration and pure...passionas he takes me in. The expression on his face when I first stripped for him. The delight when he found out about my virgin status.
God, it was so hot.
It’s like I can smell him now.
I would love it if he were here, pulling out his cock and coolly instructing me to put it in my mouth.
I make myself finish, wearing his hoodie, just thinking of my professor.
* * *
I do,eventually, have that shower that’s sorely needed after the run.
The warmth from the water and from the area between my legs starts to fade and I’m brought straight back down to reality with a thump as one tiny name pops into my head.
Non-disclosure agreement.
The contract I signed said that this was all just a casual relationship, and I can’t shake that thought, no matter how much I try to shrug it off.
Is casual even okay? Do I even want something more from this? Am I a slut for letting a man take me with no strings attached? No need for him to consider my emotions at all?
At the moment, it’s like I can’t get enough from the professor. I mean, running in his sweaty hoodie surely is proof of that. But I still want to be valued as more than something. Maybe I should’ve led with that from the very start – make my value known – instead of just rushing into things.
But I really want him. I was so scared at the thought of not having him that I signed that stupid agreement. If anyone is at fault, then it’s me.
And then, in the shower, as the hot water runs down my back, I whisper the words I dare not think.
“Am Ifallingfor this man?”
He’s just so damn mysterious, though. I’ve tried to get information out of him, but he isn’t surrendering a single morsel of his past. Ava has tried to warn me about him and his family. She’s told me about his brothers.Hell, I’ve even sat down and researched everything about those guys. Some of whom may even be heads of criminal organizations. His father has so much international power. But I can’t find out anything about him.
There isa lotto Spencer Penmayne, no doubt about that.
And I think I am going head-over-heels for him.
I think of Wuthering Heights and the line that Cathy says...
I am Heathcliff.
Well... I am Penmayne.
I shake my head.
“What a mess you’ve gotten yourself, and your heart, into, Olivia.”