We clinked our beers together in the back of the restaurant. Benjo took a good, long chug. “Man, I’ve missed this. I’ve missed not being in uniform all the time. I’ve missed just hanging out with my friends and enjoying a cold beer.”
 
 “I agree.”
 
 Benji waggled his busy eyebrows. “I also miss sex. Have anyone back home you miss?”
 
 “Nope. I was single when I joined the Army and still am. Usually when I return home, I have a few one-night stands, but nothing more.”
 
 “So, no woman you’ve been desperately missing to fuck?”
 
 I chuckled as I took another sip of my beer. “Nope.”
 
 “Man, you’re missing out. My girl back home … whew. She’s a wild card. Great in the sack.”
 
 “I hope you get to go home to her soon. When do you have leave?”
 
 “In just a few months. I can’t wait.”
 
 “Then, cheers.” I clinked my bottle to his again.
 
 The explosion happened before any of us could even process it.
 
 A huge fireball went through the restaurant. I’m not sure what caused it. A bomb. A gas leak. I was never able to find out, not even years later.
 
 All I knew was I was blown off my chair, and I landed hard on my back. The table in front of me protected me from the worst of the explosion.
 
 But when I looked over and saw Benji lying beside me, my eyes immediately locked on a piece of glass sticking out of his neck. Blood was gushing down his throat. His eyes were wide open.
 
 I crawled over to him and shook him, but his head just flopped to the side. He was dead. And all I had to show for it was the blood covering my hands.
 
 “Theo?”
 
 I gasp again, my vision clearing.
 
 “Theo?” It takes a moment to recognize the voice.
 
 Cecilia.
 
 She’s standing right before me, looking at me with concern. When my eyes finally focus, I realize everyone else is giving me the same look.
 
 “Are you all right?” she asks, reaching her hand out to me.
 
 I wrench away from her, and she drops her hand, hurt written on her face. I don’t have time to feel bad for her. She shouldn’t be asking me if I’m all right. She shouldn’t be so close to me at all.
 
 It’s a recipe for danger.
 
 “I’m fine,” I say, hoping everyone will stop looking at me like that. “I’m fine.”
 
 Cecilia hurries back to her seat, her eyes downcast. I straighten, brushing a hand down my shirt.
 
 “I apologize,” I say. “That was unprofessional.”
 
 “What was that?” Giulia asks.
 
 I clear my throat. “Just bad memories is all. I’m fine. Please. Go back to enjoying your dinner.”
 
 After a few more looks of concern thrown my way, the family resumes their dinner.
 
 Antonio clears his throat. “Actually, there’s something I want to discuss tonight. Something important.”