Page 17 of Chosen Omega

“Wow. That sounds a bit …” I want to say ‘painful’, but I stop and really think about what she said.

A bulb at the bottom of their penis that keeps the Alpha locked together with the Omega, that sounds kind of amazing. I’ve always heard girls complain that a man never wants to cuddle after they cum. They just want to finish and leave as fast as possible. Sam used to say that it made her feel cheap and used when a guy finished and ran, but there was nothing she could do about it, so she quickly got over it and learned to accept it. So the idea of a knot is like forcing a man to cuddle after sex. His own body is keeping him locked to you, in your face and present until his body decides enough time has passed. That doesn’t sound painful at all, that sounds wonderful and sweet.

“Yeah, and if you’re in heat, which is an Omega’s fertile cycle, then all you want is a knot.”

“So,” I turn towards Mandy to clarify what she said. “A heat is like a human period?”

“Yes and no. See, wolves don’t have periods, at least, not Omegas. We go through a heat. That is our body demanding to reproduce, like the Alpha knot, we have no control over when we go into heat. We can make it through without an Alpha, but it's very painful.”

“So, what is the heat? Like,” I scrunch my face and try to think of a way to ask what I want to know. “What happens during a heat? Obviously sex, but I mean more like what will I feel? How do I know I’m going into heat? Am I going to burst into a wolf and never shift back?”

Mandy and Abby are laughing. Not at me, but with me. I know that I’m asking questions that may sound a bit strange to wolves that grew up knowing the information, and I’m okay with laughing … As long as I get my answers. It takes a minute, but the girls finally calm down.

“Okay, this one is on you Mandy. I’ve never had a heat.” Abby jumps into the water and starts swimming as Mandy turns her body to face me, her feet are criss-cross under her and her elbows are resting on her knees as her hands hold up her head.

“Kay, so … A heat can be a very intense time for the Omega. Some time before, maybe a month, maybe a week, maybe even days … but sometime before the Heat actually starts, you’ll have an urge to make a space comfortable. This space is usually very small with little to no windows. This is what we call our nest.”

My mind instantly thinks of my little room at the back of my closet. I’ve been dying to redecorate it since Friday. I hope that doesn’t mean what she is implying it means, but I stay silent and let her continue. I can ask all my questions and voice my concerns when she is done.

“If your wolf has an idea of who she wants to mate, you may find that you put something that smells like them in the room. I know my first heat I stole James, Charles, and August’s dirty shirts and hid them away in my nest. It drove them crazy until they figured out what I was doing, then they went crazy for another reason.” She winked at me and I chuckled. I could imagine that the Alphas get a little excited when the Omega goes into heat.

“Now, around the time you start nesting, you may notice that you are unusually emotional. Like a human about to start her menstrual cycle. That is normal, though it may not happen every time. It really depends on the wolf. After the nest is complete, you’ll feel almost normal again, but that will only last a few hours. Soon, your body will start to literally get warmer, hints at the reason we call it heat.”

Nodding, I absorb all the information, storing it away in my mind for later. “So, what happens once you get hot?”

“You get uncomfortable of course.”

She continues to explain heats and the reactions both the Omega and the Alphas have. She also goes into an explanation of what it is like to go through a heat without an Alpha pack. She tells me about the body aches and the desperation. Listening to her explain it makes me dread my first heat. I’m already nesting, I can tell that just by her description, which means my Heat is probably a lot closer than I want it to be. There is no way I can bond to an Alpha pack fast enough to accept one to join my heat.

My wolf pushes images of CJ and his pack into my mind and I shiver at the thought. Not in a bad way, and that confuses me. I have to ask Mandy about this and I don’t want to. She is CJ’s mom and she treats the others like they are just as much her sons as he is. I feel weird about asking her to help me dissect my feelings towards them, but she is the only Omega I know. So I suck it up and ask the hard questions.

“I need to ask you something and it might be weird.”

To my surprise, she smiles. “CJ and his pack, right?”

Well, this may be easier than I thought. She is still smiling and watching me. Waiting for me to continue the topic, she looks away, focusing on Abby still swimming in the pool. I love that she is giving me space to think, but if I think too long, I’ll talk myself out of asking.

“Yes. I’ve been having strange reactions to them.”

She focuses on me again, watching my face for an uncomfortably long minute before responding. “They probably smell like the best dessert you’ve ever had and your wolf goes crazy when they are around. You find yourself wanting to spend time with them, wanting to basically bathe in their scents. Am I right?”

Hell yes she is right. Everything she is saying is spot on. I nod and she smirks.

“I think they are your mates. Which is fucking insane, but I won’t question the gods or luck or whatever it is that brought you to us. Either way, you are exactly where you are meant to be.”

“So what do I do?” I’ve never felt so small and scared in my life. I’m not afraid of the boys, but I’m terrified that I’m not the person they will want to spend the rest of their lives with.

“My advice,” Abby pops up and rests her elbows on the ground beside me. “Hang out with them. Get to know them. I can guarantee if they are your mates, then they feel the pull just as much as you do. You’ll see. Meeting your mates is as easy as breathing, you just have to get out of your own way and let nature happen.”

Mandy nods in agreement and I think I can do that. They all seem really nice, so spending time with them shouldn’t be a problem. I just hope I can keep myself from making a fool of me.

We don’t talk about anything serious for the rest of the day. We just play in the pool and shortly after our conversation comes to an end, all of the Alphas join us. Mandy laughs at Abby forcefully closing my mouth when CJ and his pack walk out the back door in nothing but swim trunks. Every line on their cut bodies is on display and I feel like my mind has blown a fuse. They are so damn beautiful. Like Greek statues come to life.

Erik is soft in the middle, but his biceps are the size of my head and his abs are clearly visible from his pecks down. Skylar is leaner than the others, but his muscles are more defined. He is also an excellent swimmer. His arms cut through the water like a hot knife through butter. Hutch and CJ are very similar, but Hutch has him on the number of muscles on display. While they are dressed, it's easy to mistakenly think they look like twins, but without their shirts, you can see that CJ is leaner like Skylar and Hutch are built like weightlifters.

Hutch and Erik both run and jump off the side of the pool. They shift in the air so that when they land in the water, they look like they are sitting in a chair holding their knees to their chest. I think I’ve heard it called ‘cannonball’ before, but I’m a trained swimmer and my instructors would have had a stroke if I did that to get into a pool. The wave caused by their bodies hitting the water was massive and splashed even James, who was standing next to the table by the door. I can’t help but laugh when I see his grumpy face and that makes everyone else giggle too. Eventually, James smiles as well, but it isn’t a happy smile. It's a smile that makes me feel like the two boys should run far and fast in the opposite direction of James.

Skylar dives off the diving board, his form is perfect and a bubble of envy and competitiveness brews in my chest. I watch as he laps the pool, avoiding the others on the side without missing a stroke. Deciding to follow Abby’s advice, I get ready to race Skylar. Even if they turn out not to be my mates, I still want to hang out with them and get to know them. They are Mandy's and her pack’s family, and I hope that we can be family too.

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