No. In fact, I have not.
My fingers start moving on the keyboard.
“You’re looking them up right now, aren’t you?” she asks, chortling.
“Damn right, I am.” I click and the picture pops up and—
I shiver.
Because I’ve seen that broody look directed my way. I’ve seen those six-pack abs and those strong thighs up close and personal.
But I haven’t seen them all oiled up, glistening, and—
“Jesus Christ,” I mutter.
“I hope you’ve licked every inch of him,” Ella says dreamily.
I haven’t yet. But I’mgoingto, just as homage to this photograph.
And maybe I was going to two-day ship in some body oil, just for good measure.
“I’ll definitely stick around long enough to do at least that,” I say, so focused on the pictures that it takes me a moment to realize Ella isn’t snarking back. “What?” I ask.
“You’re leaving again?”
Her question is taut, unhappy.
“Ells,” I begin. “I don’t have a job. I’m single because my boyfriend—who, yes, I’ve come to realize is a major asshole—cheated on me with my sister. I’m not talking to either of them. My parents are…wherever. My grandmother is dead.” I lean back against the headboard and sigh. “So, really, what’s holding me here?”
“Me,” she snaps. “You’re my best friend. I should actually be able to see you.”
“Honey, I always visit, you know that. But this is a good thing. Steve and I can go explore, and—”
“Hide because you don’t want to actually live your life.”
I still, but her words keep coming.
“Be too proud to actually accept some help from a person who’s willing to freely give it,” she all but yells. “That person is me, by the way. Or Knox. Or, I think, given what you’ve told me, Lake.”
That’s so close to what he said before he left for the rink this morning that I freeze, fingers clenching into fists. “Ells,” I warn.
“And I’mhere. I want to see you and talk to you regularly. When you disappear for months at a time, that doesn’t happen.”
Guilt curls through me. “Ella—”
“And you said Lake told you that you can stay as long as you want.”
I shake my head. “That’s just him being nice.”
“The grumpy hockey player being nice,” she says dryly.
I hate that she makes a point, hate the way that sends the butterflies in my belly soaring.
“Honey,” I say gently. “Please don’t be mad.”
Silence that’s so tense, I hold my breath.
But then she blows out a breath, and I do too. “I’ll always be here for you, you know that right?”