Page 44 of Snowed in with the Grump

CARTER

The bundle of letters sits heavy in my jacket pocket, pressed close to my heart. My heart races as I work up the nerve for what I'm about to do. Taking a deep breath, I reach into my pocket and retrieve them.

Ava's eyes widen. “You weren't supposed to read those. They're so embarrassing.”

Shame burns my neck. I hang my head. “I read every beautiful word. I’m sorry, but I needed to.”

She blinks rapidly. I brace myself for her anger. “You're not laughing. I guess that's a good sign.”

I take her delicate hands in mine. “Finding those letters and seeing your heart laid bare gave me the courage to confront my feelings.”

Reaching into my pocket again, I retrieve a folded piece of paper and hand it to Ava.

“What's this?” she asks.

I rub the back of my neck. “Read it.”

Unfolding the letter, Ava begins to read, emotions flitting across her face. Looking at her, this remarkable woman I nearly let slip away, my heart swells.

Not happening again. I’ll brave any storm, bare my soul, and do whatever it takes to earn Ava’s love.

I watch anxiously, heart in my throat, as her eyes scan the page.

* * *

My Dearest Ava,

When I'm with you, the missing piece of me falls into place. You make me feel whole.

We agreed to take things slow and figure out this fragile thing between us. But life is short, and I'm done waiting. I want to share every day with you, Ava. Talk, laugh, hold you close through the darkness, and dance with you in the light. Grow old by your side.

My heart is yours. I'm sorry it took me so long to realize you are my soulmate, my home.

I love you, Ava. I think deep down, I always have.

Forever yours,

Carter

* * *

Ava finishes reading,tears streaking her cheeks. She looks up at me with such love and wonder that it steals my breath away.

“I don't know what to say.”

“I've been a fool,” I rasp. “Running from the past, from you. I don't want to lose you.”

Ava’s gaze softens with understanding.

“I feel the same way. It doesn’t have to end. I don’t want to leave.”

I meet her earnest gaze, no longer bothering to hide the vulnerability I usually mask.

“After so many years alone, I didn't believe I’d ever find someone who could truly see and accept me, flaws and all,” I confess, emotion etching my words.

“I see you and want all of you.”

Her words hit me right in the heart. After so many lonely years doubting I'd find real acceptance, Ava sees and wants all of me.

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