Page 26 of Lost In Seoul

I almost throw my phone. The thought of him finding another girl…

No.

No. I can’t go there right now. It’s too much to contemplate.

ME

That’s not fair, you know what would happen, besides…

I almost don’t type it.

And then I can’t help myself.

He hurt me, I want to hurt him back. Ass I look around and hear the laughter of my co-workers and really think about the situation, I realize the only person that can end this is me.

SK

?

ME

Besides, it was just a fling, right?

I want him to say no so bad.

Instead.

He says nothing.

I would prefer yelling, but all Sookie gives me is absolute silence. Horrible silence that makes your brain go to all the dark places… thinking all the worse thoughts.

And I only have myself to blame.

I hate myself.

The rest of the day goes by in a blur. I force a smile and try to stay busy but the amount of times I stare at a text gone unanswered, is obscene. I\wonder if I just ruined the best thing that ever happened to me all because I was afraid.

All because I told myself I was protecting his career.

When really, I wonder if I was really trying to protect my heart.

Chapter Five

Sookie

I’ve never wanted to throw my phone so much in my entire life.

Instead, I stare at the screen and wonder how many cracks I’ll take to demolish the words I just read.

Fury washes over me. Fury and anger. And goddamn outrage over her words.

A fling?

I have ink on my body from this “fling” I have scars on my soul from this “fling” I have wounds still bleeding from this “fling.”

Fling?

My breathing becomes erratic and I quickly realize that I’m in a bad place, worse than before. I can’t stop it. I can’t breathe… I can’t.

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